reconnecting with some old friends. more battle worn then before so trying to walk on a damn tight rope. ill start to feel fine. ill start to get comfortable and then i get stabbed in the chest as anxiety brings me back to reality
“why did you say that!? youre stupid”
and the worst part:
do you listen to it because you dont want to push them away or tell it to fuck off.
and the even worst part….. you wont know the right answer until the anxiety gets so bad that you push them away, or you get so annoying they push you away.
mental disorders ruin everything