“this medication is kind of helping but not”
“can you manage it?”
“yes” (who the fuck is going to say no. ‘no i cant manage my suicidal thoughts’ seems fairly obvious)
“ok then just get your Rx from your family doc and if it gets worse call me back”
i see we settle with mediocre. they want us to feel like we’re cared for but when they send us packing in a “kind of helpful” state it really does just reinforce that they dont care. all that matters is that we arent dead and our loved ones arent crying. forget us.
anyway in accordance with my last post
“Every time i think about saying anything I want to take more medication.
I just want to shut up and die already…..”
i upped my dose from 20mg to 30mg. i feel…. “better”. idk, this medication thing really does have a silencing feel more then a helping feel.