To start with… Extreme emotions. To me, it’s like no one else has emotions. Everyone’s so… Blah or meh about stuff. It makes sharing or talking difficult because I’m not getting the same energy in return so it feels like they don’t care. Even telling myself “it’s ok they do like it they just aren’t like you” doesn’t help much.
Then there’s the needy thing like I mentioned in another post. you haven’t messaged back. Why haven’t you messaged back yet!? And it doesn’t matter it’s only been a minute. They’re probably doing something, chill. But BPD doesnt care. It never cares. You can speak all the logic you want, BPD will still panic.
Thank you BPD, you really know how to make a person feel alone even when they arent….
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I relate to this deeply. Everyday it’s a struggle, some days it’s not as bad and I can shut it out. But then there’s days, every minute feels like fucking hell. You know I can only give you the advice, that if you rile yourself up so much at some point, just take a break. I mean from talking to anyone! It will be hard but after a few days you’ll feel more peaceful, cause you don’t have to expect anything from someone and don’t have to wait for them replying, so you can do something else fun instead. I find I am overbearing with whenever I am happy or mad about a thing but yeah it’s just that they don’t have similar emotions.
You know, I always thought about it the opposite. As in, so many are so emotional about everything, and care about what I feel are meaningless things. So thanks for your perspective. I think I will try to reciprocate other’s emotions, to communicate that I care if I want them to know I care.
I find that a lot of people I know, while in voice conversations they are talkative and respond to what you say, in text conversations they will just not respond to something if it’s not a question. And I think, I just need to learn to accept that that’s how some people react to messages, and to not think that they really want me to stop, because these are people that are fine with talking to me voice-wise. But that’s my circle of friends, as someone who doesn’t have very many friends, so maybe your situation is different.