05:13

Early hours in the morning really are quite nice. It’s been a long while since i was last awake this early all by myself, i should do it more often. There’s a certain… feeling of belonging at this time. And it just feels kinda right.
I didn’t sleep very well, it was actually kinda strange. I was dreaming, but my eyes were burning because i felt awake. Kept fully waking up and trying to go back to sleep quite a few times, so about an hour ago i just gave up.
It’s true what they say, that the sky’s darkest moment is right before the sun rises. I’m literally watching as it happens right now. However, i hate it as a metaphor for life. Maybe because it’s so overused, but honestly it just doesn’t seem accurate.
My body feels tired, and i know i am; not sleeping properly really does a number on one’s body. I feel at ease though, and that’s worth it.
My head’s been pretty clouded recently, just because of life. Particularly one specific conversation i had recently, but that’s besides the point. I’ve been struggling a lot, actually. Yesterday i looked in the mirror when i walked past it and i didn’t look like myself at all, it was bizarre. Even now, it’s hard to explain. I’ve never been one to look in mirrors, i’m not a big fan of what i see, but that time, it was so strange. It’s not even the kind of thing where you don’t recognize your own image anymore, i straight up looked like a different person. Like i was my own sibling and we look similar but not the same. In the end, i was too scared to look again, and i haven’t yet today.
People are starting to wake up now. Maybe i should start to get up earlier from now on.