you want to support them. you want to tell them “thats totally awesome” “i hope you have fun” “i know you can do it” but while you say it, you push away the tears. you push down the pain raising in your chest. you want to support them but all you see is them away from you. supporting, feels a lot like pushing away, and you dont want to push them away, but you dont want to not support them either. so you hide what youre feeling, knowing supporting them, even if it means pushing them away, is whats best. you love them and you want to be there for them, even if it tears you apart to watch.
even though you know supporting them doesnt mean youll lose them, you just cant help feeling like theyre gone….