7 years since I was last here.. I think. I’ve traveled. I’ve gotten married. I almost had a baby. Things kind of fell apart and now they’re on the upswing. Life is good.
So why am I home alone writing a note and trying to figure out how to avoid a mess? I’m not scared this time. I’ve just cracked again. Avoidance doesn’t work when it comes to suicide. It just gives you more time to build new relationships and add to the guilt of hurting more people.
I’m procrastinating. I wonder if there’s anything after this?
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I stand corrected. It’s only been four.. in my defense, it felt like fifty.
I am 22 and have been suicidal for most my life. I fear even if I do what I originally wanted, kids, wife… even if I get everything I will still want to die. What’s the point.