a dream?

I’ve tried writing here for a really long while. Probably made like 10 accounts with passwords I forgot. Have like 12 posts in drafts, always uncertain of what to post. But there is one thing. Recently I’ve daydreamed about what it would be like to get head-pats from someone, telling me I’m doing good and trying my best. That they’re proud of me. A dream that always brings me to tears. Kinda can’t help myself from crying. I just do. The tears trickle down cuz there’s too much. Pretty stupid how much just a single dream makes me cry and lose my shit now. Panic attacks left and right…for every little thing. Nonetheless, I still what that dream to be true. But then again, a dream is just a dream