I am a senior in high school, 18, about to be out on my own. all my friends are super excited, ready to go to college and conquer the world. I am lazy as shit. I turn in my homework late or not at all, even when it is extremely easy because I’m too lazy to do it, i never clean my room even though its disgustingly filthy, and if i wasn’t being literally forced to work a job i would have quit by now. I have considered dropping out of high school multiple times (not now since I’m about finished) because its too much work to focus. And when i’m at home all i do is sit at my computer playing csgo and smoking kush all day. I feel like life is useless and i know if i don’t get this problem fixed i will be absolutely screwed. i don’t want to go to college because I’m too lazy to do so, i also don’t know a career i want to do that will pay a livable wage and everything costs a fuckton nowadays. I find myself trying to do things but I can’t and i ask myself often, what is the point? Why continue? it’d be easier to just end it. I am 100% sure i would have by now if it wasn’t for my being scared of death. I have tried to fix it multiple times, but i cant. And i know people look down on me bc how lazy i am. I hope this isnt the wrong place to post this, i just have nowhere else and no one to say this too
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I’m not sure how to help you, but I think a good place to start might be owning up about how you feel to the people around you. Have you triet telling a teacher? Or your parents? Or a friend?
I think it’s hard to be motivated if you perceive what you’re doing as meaningless. What do you think about the world you live in? What are some things you would change if you could? What are some things you would keep the same?
I use to be like you, I still am a bit but I worked with a psychologist for a few years and I was able to change the way I view things a big. You can get out of your nihilistic funk by setting goals, focus on small daily goals, it can be hard to start but once you get in the habit it’s great!! Just set one goal a day, something simple like clean your sink, do that every day for a week, next week add another goal, wash 1 load of laundry daily, after a few months you’ll have your own set of daily goals, long term goals are the only thing that keep me out of depression.
I haven’t really done drugs but from what I understand weed/kush can make you lazy, so that could be the source of your problems.
Ofc depression and other emotions can have an effect. I used to be late for work for example by 5-10 mins. I vaguely recall feeling embarrassed when my manager pointed it out and she wasn’t mean about it.
I think she did give me some advice about aiming for 10 mins earlier and I’ll arrive on time…can’t recall the details it was many years ago, but anyways it worked.
Since then I was almost never late for anything. It’s 90% discipline. If you want anything good in life you have to work for it.
There is so much crap one has to go through to get anywhere. I did my degree, had numerous jobs over the years and now I’m finally in a position to buy my own condo or house, if all goes well in the next few months. I’m in an expensive city.
Actually the ‘secret’ is that the higher up you go, the more money and benefits you get and the easier your life. It is harder to be poor, to rent (which never stops increasing), to drive shitty cars.
If you buy new cars for example, they last longer, have less problem and have a higher trade in value which you then use to get another newer car. If you have a house, you can rent your bsmt, generate income, your property increases in value, you wipe out your mtg and now your costs are minimal to survive.
So in fact you just make life 10x harder for yourself if you choose to say “at the bottom.” Ofc it’s not an easy struggle, but your life gets much easier when you have your own house.
Nowadays unless you have a well-paying job you definitely need at least 2 incomes to get there, but after you achieve it then you can mostly chill, just pay the basics.
If life truly sucks there’s no way up or out…then ya I’d opt to exit also. I’ve had a few terrible low points but I’m glad I stayed to at least help a few family members who are close to me and I don’t regret it.