He has been the source of my issues since I was born. He’s abusive in all ways possible: physical, mental, emotional, sexual, and financial. I’ll never be able to leave this place and he’s got my mother wrapped around his finger, so whatever I say about him, she excuses it.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about dying. I’ll leave all of my possessions with my brother (my best friend) and I’ll apologize to all of my friends before I quit. I have nowhere else to go and he’s controlling my life. I can’t leave without killing myself. It’s the only way out.
I have pets, but he’s threatened to kill them multiple times and I’ve talked him out of it, but he’s been pulling out his gun on them and choking them and beating them. I try to hold back my tears when he does this so I don’t satisfy his sadistic urges.
I don’t want to die this way, but there’s no other choice. Yes, I have spoken to the authorities multiple times. They don’t give a shit about me or my pets. They just shrug it off. I either kill myself or he kills me with his own bare hands. I don’t want to give him that, so I’ll kill myself. What’s another dead kid of his to him? He won’t care. He never has.