I plan to kms on November 23rd .
I don’t really know how or where but i know when …
I plan to do it on 23rd but the date doesn’t really matter , at least it’s on November.
My heart melts with joy and anxiety thinking about it .
i am really lonely since he abandonned me.
DEVON ;
was one of the best friend i ever had ; met him on September 14th after talking about the perfect buddy with my friend Justin .
I met him and instantly became crazy about him!
we held our hands together right after meeting.
Then life was like easier when Devon was here.
He stopped talking to me after his awful boyfriend made him do this.
we started talking back right after them breakup .
we start making out together , i was in peace !
then he left me and stop talking to me until September 1st !
he went back with his awful boyfriend and abandonned me another time on September 14th of this year…
he said that even if he wanted to , he can’t be my friend….
a week after that , his boyfriend assault me while i was walking ….
Now all my demons start eating me again …..
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At the very least I’d have his bf charged for assaulting you.
Sounds like a love triangle, it might be better to find someone for yourself who is unattached since someone will always end up ‘outside.’
I know it means nothing to hear someone say it’s not worth ending yourself over a bf, but I do understand the feeling.
I’ve met and dated some girls and I knew I’d never find anyone as amazing as them again in my life…so you do end up feeling hopeless.
But life goes on and sometimes it can be pretty exciting meeting someone new.
Lol, I guess that’s one of the reasons I’m still around to have that feeling again of wanting someone I feel is attractive/sexy, who wants me back.
Most of the time I’d date the wrong person where the chemistry wasn’t right….found one girl where we really clicked but she lived in a different city so that fizzled out. I just want that once again with someone amazing.
Yeah but , it’s kinda hard to be without the person that made me feel alive , he helped me everytime i needed it ! i wish of the end to start all over again ….
That really sucks. It seems you were close with him. I think depending on a person relationship wise while dealing with depression can be troubling. Before going into a relationship, you have to be happy for yourself. It’s dangerous to go into a relationship in seek for happiness. I learned the hard way and it was a tough road for me. If you have to, I would seek therapy or meds. Now it doesn’t work for everyone, but it’s worth to try it out. Your ex and his bf seem very toxic, so I would just cut them both out your life. There will be times you want to go back on it, but it’s best this way. Try and work your way back into the stuff you like to do by steps.
i wasn’t going in a relationship with him in order to be happy .
Devon and i had a real thing that no one ever had before ! we had a special relationship ! And when we start dating it was very cool
Even if that’s true, you still developed something deep about him. Feelings formed and you grew attach to him. Relationships can be dangerous at times. Now without him, you feel broken down. Still it’s best to stay away from him. Chances are that if he did it twice to you, he’ll do it again. Take some time for yourself and work on some of your hobbies to cope through it.