Problem in Paradise

I was in Hawaii with a bunch of friends. Great time – right? Too much booze, lots of laughter. Until I did something silly and one of my friends yelled at me and told me to stop being childish. I immediately shut down and went to my room – on the 29th floor. Sitting out on the balcony bawling I started seriously thinking about jumping. That would teach him, right? I sat there thinking yes, no, yes, no, yes, no. Thankfully the “no’s” won out.

I never thought too much about revenge suicide until then. Other times, other reasons. But revenge suicide is something that affects the living person forever. Not just with sadness, but with guilt – worse than sadness or anger in my opinion.

I think about that night all the time. I’m so thankful I didn’t go through with it. But concerned that I came so close. Talk to someone if you are feeling close to doing something harmful to yourself. You mean so much to someone out there even though it feels like you don’t. You just might not have met them yet!