go…back?

It sounds like low self esteem is the problem, which you should know is fairly common for your age, not to minimize your struggle. You’ve had some people beat up how you feel about yourself, to the point you think you won’t be missed.

One sure thing; you’ll be missed, and you’re probably more important to the people around you than you know. It’s just too often those are the things to upsetting to admit, people don’t say it enough. It’s possible that one person has devalued you completely, and that’s where you are getting the low opinion of yourself.

So, courage. Yes, being this sick is unpleasant both for you and your family. You’ve got to make the best of it that can be made. It’s why I stopped comparing myself to anyone; they had different advantages and challenges than me. Who’s to say that maybe in my shoes even the most ambitious spirits meet their ultimate test.

I know I’ve got empathy, because when I see someone sad, I tend to feel sad too. In fact, never admitted it consciously, that really is the problem. I’ve seen so many sad stories, such horrible perversions, and sick sick people……. I can’t stay happy like that anymore.