Story timeee
So, I got in the car after school ended, like usual, and my school does professional dress Mondays so I’m wearing a skirt. Well long story short, someone said bye to me so I looked back at them and apparently my skirt when up too high and when I sat down in the backseat my mom just looks and at and she says, “are you cutting?” anyways since she already saw them on my thighs, there’s no denying it so I just didn’t say anything. Also, its my stepbrothers birthday, and birthdays are supposed to be fun but idek with this one. The whole way home I can see her texting my bsf asking if she knew and that she’s gonna ask my bsf’s dad to see if my bsf is doing it too. She then went on a rant abt how I have shitty friends and I should be hanging out with a whole different crowd. Also, she said that she has enough evidence to send my to a teen home or hospital. She then brought up the fact that my brother did way less and was sent to a teen home when he was 11, he got out when he was 16. Now he lives with his friend in a whole different town. We get home and she takes my to my room, asks all the questions, when, why, with what, how long. What surprised me was the fact that the woman who literally doesn’t give two shits abt me was crying because, how could I do this to her. I told her I didn’t wanna be here, I didnt want to live with her and my siblings and her fiance. So she asked, where would you go, who would support you. So I say, I’d go to my bsf’s house but I know you wouldn’t let that happen. And she agreed and told me to think abt it. Also she says I’m going to the doctors tmr and will be checking me daily and searching my room. Im just happy i got rid of my vape before i left school.
Life’s great.
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ouch well it’s out there now, even though your mom’s reaction was the wrong one. Maybe she’ll come to her senses and actually try to help instead of making it about her.
When my mom found out she yelled at me for exactly 30 sec, threatened doctors, and then totally forgot about everything. I think a lot of parents choose denial over admitting they failed. Or it sounds like in your mom’s case she’s blaming and punishing you, another way of deflecting responsibility for her failure (as with your brother).
In any case it’s out there, so in a weird way that oughta take some of the burden off you. And even if she takes away your physical freedom, I hope your mind feels freed up a little since you don’t need to hide it anymore.
My mind does feel like i got something off my chest but now she’s acting like nothing happened and is trying to buy me things. It feels really weird being around her now and like I’ve been trying to act super happy around the house so she doesn’t mention it again. One big difference that I’ve noticed about my everyday life is that I’m now always thinking about wanting to die. For example my school has two stories and part of the second floor is just like a little walkway across the building with some couch circles, so its really open and up there has handrails and now when I’m walking up there all I can think about is hopping over the rails even though I know its not high even to do anything really. Its enough that its scaring me to be around there but i have to to get to classes. I’m always thinking about it instead of how it was when she didn’t know, I only thought about it when I was alone or when everyone was fighting. The only person that I know of that she told is my bsf and now my bsf’s acting all concerned cuz of how happy I seem at school. On another note, my bsf told me today she was gonna kill herself a few weeks ago and had even sent out goodbye texts to everyone but one person was awake when she sent it and talked her out of it.
That’s hilarious & exactly what happened to me… Parent’s reaction is initially to get angry/sad/emotional but then forget the whole thing and start doing nice things to compensate. And it’s implied that we won’t talk about it.
(PROBLEM SOLVED!)
So it’s back to self harm, being half assed secretive again… even though everyone knows what’s going on. lol doesn’t this sum up everything that’s wrong with society’s attitude toward mental health?
Welp you could always use this as an opportunity to start recovery. You know how sometimes we want to recover but we don’t have a good reason to start. This could be like a sign. Another sign could be your bsfs su attempt. You could try being strong for her sake (even though your situation isn’t much better). The whole thing is like a weird dance. idek if there’s a point but at least things are interesting