Objectively, things should be going well. I’m five months out from starting grad school. I have enough to eat, gas for the car, self care items like toothbrush and foot cream.
I just don’t feel it. I don’t feel any of it. I don’t know how to make myself want to get up and go. I just got back from the store, which I did by myself. Upshot I got some things I probably wouldn’t have if I had been accompanied, but I was hoping it would energize me, but it’s draining me. I got myself a strong cup of coffee, but even that is failing to raise my spirits.
The weather is nice, I guess I’ll try and do some gardening…. that’s the only thing that sounds remotely appealing right now. If only that served any other purpose besides fresh air and curb appeal.
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same here, i’m aimless, directionless, have no motivation or drive or oomph left. at least you’re going for something tho. i know for me, if i don’t have the drive, i wont do well, in grad school or whatever it is i’m doing if i don’t “feel” it.
Sorry you feel so low. Hope things with grad school go well.