It’s been about a year since she has stopped talking to me and my obsession has not ended. I think it’s gotten worse. I heard her name over the announcements today because she won some sort of award or whatever and my whole day was ruined. My heart was pounding and my mouth went dry and I couldn’t focus at all. I think about reaching out to her sometimes but what would I say? I just want to know what she’s doing now. I really miss her honestly. Every time I see her talking to someone I wish it was me instead of them. I guess I do hate her but I also still really really like her. Or maybe I like the version of her I have in my head. She has such a chokehold on my emotions and I bet she doesn’t even remember my name. I see her when I walk to my bus. I get as close as I can but I still stay slightly ahead of her. I just want to see if she says anything (she doesn’t). I don’t really know what I’m going for here. I wish I could make my brain shut UP and let me forget about her.
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Sorry your going through this. It sounds like you are in high-school. This might sound harsh, but I have experience with this. You have to stop mopping around and do either one of two things. A) Just talk to her. B) Just forget about her and move on. If you choose to talk to her, don’t expect her to be buddy buddy with you. Nothing might come of it to talk to her, but at least you did. Again sorry for sounding harsh, but I’ve dealt with the same thing for a long amount of time. Don’t end up like me.
You’re not being harsh don’t worry. I really want to talk to her but I don’t want to come across as creepy or desperate. I really want to move on but it’s hard though I guess I haven’t really been trying. Thanks for the advice.