Don’t have a whole lot to say but felt like posting anyway. I went to a bar yesterday. A barcade to be specific. I love arcades, so I’m always happy to go to one. I drink occasionally but usually I don’t drink too much, mainly because of how expensive it is. I ended up drinking alot though last night. I blew 40 bucks on four whiskey sours. That feeling of inebriation was nice. I felt light and things didn’t seem so important. I felt at peace in a sense. Last night might have been the second most drunk I have ever been. The most drunk I have ever been was me not even being able to see straight. I’ve never been black out drunk. I’ve had maybe 3 hangovers in my life total. Anyways, my family has had problems with alcoholism, so my mom sometimes voices concerns about whether I drink a lot or not. I usually tell her I don’t have the money. One last thing, when I was drunk and looked in the mirror, I found myself thinking I was uglier than usual. Don’t you have self esteem boosts when your drunk? I guess even inebriated I find myself gross. That’s about it for today. I could talk about how I’m worried about presenting this week and meeting the company executives this week, but I don’t really care about talking about that now. That’s about it. Hope everyone has a good day. At least as good a day as guys like us can get.
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Whiskey sours sound nice, I’d have to have significant distraction to manage it myself. Similarly; my family and alcohol have a history. My uncle and grandpa died from complications caused by alcoholism. But, German family, so drinking still happened quite a bit. I can enjoy a casual drink now and then, but getting drunk takes external circumstances being really pleasant.
In a few weeks I’m going to a concert, and last time I went to a concert I was able to get substantially inebriated, so that should be nice.
I second the feeling of being gross while intoxicated. I get sweaty and gross, plus if I overdo it I will be sick…. It’s all the drugs I’m on, another anticipation towards sobriety is that I could get well and truly smashed now and then. Sadly at this point to reach truly exhilarating levels of high takes at least two drugs, and one is all I can manage on this stomach.
It was 4/20 a few days ago and I didn’t even want to smoke… last time with THC I got so sick…. I still have some leftovers from when I had a medical card. I let it expire, it’s not much fun or use anymore.
It’s okay to drink alcohol to relax every now and then, but completely depending on it will worsen your mental health. At first, it numbs the pain and you just don’t care. It’s not until later it takes a toll on you. You grow addicted and drink more and more to get that same buzz. I could of walked that path, but I didn’t. If anything, I smoked cigs. Would do weed if I wasn’t allergic to it. Glad you had a good day though. Like us people don’t always get to live normal lives like other people who don’t deal with mental illness on a day to day basis. I always come here and feel welcome. I find people I can relate to and chat with. At least here, we all can relate.
Aw fuck it, Hope you have a good day today too darling