Have you ever feel that the universe conspires against you?

I’ve felt that way, sure. What broke it as a concept for me was that I am fundamentally not that important, there’s not much that I do or would do that would rise to the notice of something as complex and large as the universe. Which also assumes the universe has something approaching an awareness of anything, I doubt that as well.

My explanation is not easier to believe, IE paranoia is the path by which the human mind goes easiest because it is flattering to the ego. That alone is a good reason to doubt it, as many natural human perceptions are faulty, and thus they should be the first thing you question.

I believe we live in a horrible and indifferent society. Humans are responsible for most human misery, and it isn’t centralized or planned because that would be work, and the essential undermotivatedness is key to understanding normal people. Rather it is a wide case of varying levels of corruption, at which people are at least somewhat aware.

The governor of my state is the closest I’ve found to a truly evil man. He serves himself above all else but especially above the marginalized and suffering. His existence shows to me that there is a local source of greed, cruelty and petty action. Then I’ve met the many who work for him, and in similar ways to him. Humans are social creatures, we imitate other humans and anyone so prominent will be widely imitated

so the universe isn’t out to get you or me, because that’s an excessively complicated solution to the problem that ordinary people have a bad go of it. Rather, throughout the species, there are many who care little apart from for themselves. These people are on average well off, and they use their status to insulate themselves from their own actions.