i know ive dissapointed everyone but why is everyone else caring about it more than i am.

theres no point of being optimistic anymore so i dont know why i ever am. i do this to myself. i cause my own pain.

what am i without it, i have nothing left to give. ive ruined my own life and now i dont see a point in continuing.

ive never been diagnosed with anything but im pretty sure im like some type of sociopath or anxiety or some type of crazy bc im too unstable to be normal