Why is it so hard to stop believing something negative about myself and this world if I constantly get evidence that it isn’t true? Why can’t my stupid brain just understand what I want it to believe and what I don’t want it to believe. I’m debating on drinking again because I can feel the fear in my body. Even though I understand my beliefs are unwarranted, my body still behaves the way someone in fear does.
Sometimes I wish I was just a robot, maybe then I could turn off certain emotions like an on/off switch. I really hate being human. Sometimes I wish I was still just an innocent kid. At least back then I could leave my house without any fear.
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What is it that you fear?
What are the beliefs you have?
You’d have to be more specific if you can, but if you think you’re a bad person for example and the world says you’re not, then clearly you need to change how you see yourself.
I agree with you on emotions…it’s what makes us human….and hey if you have a good life you feel awesome…but if life is tough then we feel awful.
That’s the double-edged sword of feelings. But this is also why some people stick around and try to improve their lives because they know if they get be in a better place (however they define it) then they’ve found happiness again.
And I say ‘again’ because it seems many of us (me included) had a great childhood but things when to crap as we became teens and later adults with serious responsibilities.