“i like being alone, but i don’t fancy being lonely”
people around me are doing something or the other in their lives. they are either in good relationships, being happy or are excellent at studies, building up their future but again here I am, writing stuff that doesn’t matter to anyone on a site where everyone is as fucked up as me or even more. just yesterday when I was with my friends, all of them were talking but I kept feeling like there was a wall between us and the worst part was that I wasn’t bothered by the wall because I’m the one who built it up. What bothered me was that I am sure they also felt the wall but did not do anything about it. they just let me feel lonely right there.
i tried talking about it, the fact that all of this is happening around me and the reaction? “don’t pay attention to it and just study” What the fuck? you’re saying it as if I had no idea. it’s not the fact that I want more friends or a relationship but the fact that I’m feeling lonely as fuck not being able to do anything. why am I the only one going through all this shit?