This is my first post, so I hope I’m doing this right. I’ve never been good at writing so this might be a little incoherent.
I know I will kill myself someday and I’m at peace with that. I just have to wait a few years till my friends either have left the country or have moved on.
My contact with friends is minimal I do not care for reaching out either. I feel incredibly selfish for taking my own life knowing it will hurt them.
My best friend/roomate has taken some distance because of my persistent pessimism. She’s not doing too great mentally either and I’m glad she finally is doing some self preservation being the people pleaser that she is.
I was going to write more but really don’t know where this was going there too much and too little to write about lol guess its really just about being able to share what you’re thinking. Sadly thoughts go too fast to write about.
Anyways I do wonder if anyone from the Netherlands is on suicide project. not entirety sure if I’m allowed to ask but am too curious.