I just don’t feel comfortable anywhere. Not at home or outside of it. I don’t fit in anywhere. I can’t make connections with people the way others do. It feels like there’s something so different about me that prevents me from becoming “one” with this world. It’s not that I don’t like the people around me, it’s that I don’t understand them.
I guess what I’m feeling is something like a perpetual feeling of homesickness, except for the fact that I am “home”. I keep hoping that it gets better, and maybe it will, I haven’t even graduated high school yet. I just wish they’d get better quicker.
I feel so alone and alien so often. Like I’ve been taken from my home and thrown into a whole new dimension.
I don’t know how better to describe it. I feel disconnected with everything around me, even my own body. It’s like being in a permanent dream.
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it sounds like dissociation, though I could be wrong
Chances are, in a world of 8 billion people, there’s someone else like you, who’ll understand you. You may just have to look harder than most people do. Perhaps you’re neurodivergent in some way, maybe a diagnosis could help you find people similar to yourself?