Yeah I think we all here feel that pain inside. A sickening hot chest pain that spreads through your body at times. It really hurts when you cant cry anymore.
it’s a spectrum, the pain in my chest. Sometimes it’s more feeling, like more in the nerves if that makes sense. Then there are the physical symptoms. Often it feels like there’s a heavy weight on my chest, as if there’s a cinder block pressing down that I can’t remove. Sometimes, at the worst, it’s hard to draw breath.
My soul though? Do I even still have one? if so, it’s on severe life support
the sadness is so deep….. I can’t find the bottom anymore, I don’t even have a feeling for it, the closest I can get is clumsy metaphor.
Been a long time since I’ve felt that. Most feelings feel like swimming through thick water nowadays. It’s more a familiar “oh, that’s back again, so nothing unusual” I’m in this too long, I think.. there’s no feeling left, I haven’t yet discovered
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Yeah I think we all here feel that pain inside. A sickening hot chest pain that spreads through your body at times. It really hurts when you cant cry anymore.
it’s a spectrum, the pain in my chest. Sometimes it’s more feeling, like more in the nerves if that makes sense. Then there are the physical symptoms. Often it feels like there’s a heavy weight on my chest, as if there’s a cinder block pressing down that I can’t remove. Sometimes, at the worst, it’s hard to draw breath.
My soul though? Do I even still have one? if so, it’s on severe life support
the sadness is so deep….. I can’t find the bottom anymore, I don’t even have a feeling for it, the closest I can get is clumsy metaphor.
Been a long time since I’ve felt that. Most feelings feel like swimming through thick water nowadays. It’s more a familiar “oh, that’s back again, so nothing unusual” I’m in this too long, I think.. there’s no feeling left, I haven’t yet discovered