BILLIONS of people have parents who love them. WHY do I have to get screwed with TWO of the most shittiest ppl on the planet? How does one even HAVE a fucking chance when you start off life with two assholes who are selfish af and don’t care about you?
And yet I’m told to “just forget the past” by EVERYONE. Like YOU get abused since birth and tell me how easy for you to “just get over it.”
It’s not like I wasn’t given a toy I wanted for my birthday. I got BEATEN almost every day, with GIANT black and blue bruises all over my body, just for EXISTING. Why you ask? Because I had the nerve and audacity to be born a girl. And was the punching bag for YEARS upon YEARS.
Fast forward to day. They are all still rotten. And selfish AF. I am CURSED to have the life I did, TORMENTED by all the abuse. And they are STILL selfish and shitty to me to this day.
WHY COULDN’T I HAVE JUST BEEN ABORTED INSTEAD? Would never had to deal with a lifetime of fucking abuse, torture, and depression. They were all such fucking assholes. And STILL selfish assholes to this day.
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As long as you maintain the relationship you have to accept it the way it is. You are the one who needs to change and grow. Distance yourself or set boundaries and limits, you are all grown up now and you determine what you will allow or not. Focus on building relationships that make you feel good and put the rest aside. It’s a cliche, but it’s true accepting the way they are will help you more to get past the anger and maybe find a place that is comfortable.
It’s not possible to distance myself and “set boundaries.” 1- She doesn’t listen and just does whatever tf she wants, she doesn’t give a rats ass about “boundaries.”
She lied to to get me to move here, so she can kick me out of the place I was in before this. Now I’m stuck in the same house with my shitty mother and now I’m so screwed bc she’s such a fucking bit.ch. And no, I’m not being harsh. You don’t know who she really is.
She is the woman who fucking abused me when I was growing up. And yeah, it’s my fault for 1- believing she’s better now that she’s older. nope, she’s just as callous and shitty as she was when she was younger. and 2- i got convinced by other family members to move in with her. they don’t know what a bit.ch she is and I didn’t know to this extent what a callous cold-hearted person she is.
I had very little contact with her the past 2.5 decades or so. So I didn’t realize what a fucking bit.ch she still is, always has been and always will. Stupid of me to think she had changed and gotten better. ALL she cares about is 1- MONEY and 2- her two golden children.
And now I’m fucking stuck here bc I have nowhere to go. AND ALL my stuff is destroyed bc her selfish ass didn’t clear any room for my stuff, bc she wanted MY stuff in the dirty nasty garage, and so ALL my stuff from my whole life is fucking destroyed. Photo albums, school stuff, etc. Every single thing I own is now stinky and full of mold and mildew bc the garage is nasty as fuck. OH and meanwhile she refuses to throw out JUNK in the house, in MY room, so I can put my stuff in.
Maybe saving up some money and moving out into a place of your own would help things. That way, you don’t have to put up with her anymore if you don’t want to.
yeah but the damage is done.
1- ALL my stuff is destroyed- bc when I moved in- she lied and told me the 2 rooms were EMPTY, and I was going to put stuff there. But she PURPOSELY didn’t clear a SINGLE thing in the room, and purposely cleared a small section of the nasty garage so that all MY stuff could all go in there- like ALL my stuff from childhood, photo albums, files, etc. ALL my stuff got thrown into the garage and it’s disgusting and smelly and full of bugs down there. it’s fucking disgusting in there.
and 2- my health has already suffered. i’ve gotten SO sick since being here bc her place is gross and unsanitary, with shit neighbors constantly harassing me. 3- my relationship with HER AND ALL the rest of the family AND extended family is all damaged bc of HER. she spins HER narrative, and plays the innocent little victim when she’s really a cold, calculating lying gaslighting Bish.
Yes, I know I need to move out but it’s not easy. 1- EVERYWHERE is expensive af, and 2- My health makes it hard to get anything done, especially since I was already sick and being here has made me even sicker. I don’t even have a desk or any furniture here!! -_-
Sorry. Some people are humbled with age and change to become better people, but others just become more their cruel selves and don’t change. I hope you can figure a way out of the space, maybe find a little quiet.
i wish i NEVER moved in here. if i knew what a bit,ch she was and how ALL my stuff would be destroyed along with my health, i wouldn’t have moved in. unbelieveable how fucking cold and callous she is. ALL she cares about is $$$. And faking shit so she LOOKS good in front of others. ALL of her is a fucking LIE.