I feel for you Eternal…what’s holding you back is your health. If you were fine, then nearly nothing could get in your way of changing your life.
If I was in your situation but with my normal health, then I’d do whatever I could to get away from the bad people around me.
I’d find a decent job in another town or city…. I’d turn over every rock, try to stay with someone that I was close to.
Your life was extremely unfair to you…I felt mine was too.
We could’ve probably been in a great place right now if not for all the troubles we experienced and the azzholes that played their part in wrecking our lives.
I was just doing some shopping in a major store earlier and then was wondering why am I even here? Life has passed me by for the most part.
I missed out on everything that’s good about it…great job, spouse, house, vacations, etc.
And I’m not saying that’s ‘perfect’ either….some of those things can be problems on their own…but still, I would’ve liked to have a normal life than to have fallen through the cracks.
The biggest ‘failure’ for me though was not locking in a great s/o when I had the chance. I could be broke/jobless, but so long as I have my degree and a significant other, I know I can make a good life for myself.
Now I just feel like a ghost…someone who’ve outlived his usefulness and living for nothing.
I keep going for others, but I wish I wasn’t around…few things interest me any more…aside from achieving some goals.
I’m just so tired- tired of struggling, tired of trying only to get nowhere, tired of meeting ppl only to find out they’re secretly evil and trying to manipulate or use you. tired of always being sick. tired of just a fucking shitty life.
I hear you…I usually begin with the default notion that any person I meet is probably an azzhole on the inside and out to undermine me and thus I am rarely surprised or disappointed.
Most people have proven me right time and time again. The main thing is to be the best person you can be…it’s like the example of lying…the truth is much easier to remember than a lie.
I’ve interacted with real liars and it’s crazy how bad their memories are and what they thought they said was contradictory to what was actually said, kind of funny too…but such people are scary and untrustworthy to say the least-and you never want them to have power over you like landlord or boss.
Rotten people eventually show their true face…but the key is to minimize any entanglements with them…don’t be their friend, don’t lend them anything, don’t count on them for anything-best to avoid really.
As for your situation I think of Maslow’s hierarchy of needs…many of us here are probably stuck in the lower rungs because of the way our life is.
Now for me-again I’m not giving advice to anyone else…and everyone is responsible for their own life decisions, but if my life was constantly in the lowest level and no matter what I did decade after decade and it didn’t change that’d be bad enough to consider exiting and it’s kind of my situation now.
But if my health gives out in any major way…then hell no will I keep going, for what exactly? What’s even worse is that one could be rich asf, but if you’re an invalid, stuck on machines, can’t do basics, that’s another pointless existence.
I’m going on cause my health is ok, not great, I have back issues and other problems but nothing that (for now, knock on wood) will put in the hospital bed…but if I do develop any serious, incurable problems, then that’s my redline…I’m out.
I think what stops most of us from going over the edge is fear…when we conquer that fear than we will find our real freedom/peace from this bad existence.
I’m sure you have your own good reasons for going…but for me, I’ve suffered enough and I don’t want to pile on more suffering with no rewards or payoffs.
our biggest “failure” was being born in the wrong generation, in the “wrong” country. you know when things were good? after WW2. Boomers had it SO fucking good, then they changed all the rules that helped them and got rid of them to screw over all the future generations. worldwide, boomers screwed over the future generations. worldwide, boomers are hated- and for a very good reason. now, i don’t hate every single boomer i meet IRL, but as a collective, they all voted for policies that screwed all future generations over.
a few countries are doing well- scandivania countries have much happier residents. why? wealth/income is more distrubuted. USA is about as bad as it gets when it comes to income disparity (aside from like Africa or such places).
Forgot to ask in my response above, what makes you keep ‘hanging in’? Maybe a latent love for life and hope it can get better? It’s kind of the case with me.
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve wished I was in someone else’s life that was doing better….but we’re stuck with what we have. Actually there are so many more lives far worse off than mine, I’m ‘rich’ compared to these billions of sad people.
Indeed I think some European nations (which are beautiful too), have figured out the best socio-economic system that is fair to most of its citizens. They’ve created a paradise on Earth for themselves…or as close as we can get it with our current situation.
The US is definitely one of the worst nations for income distribution thanks to the greed of GOP and incompetence of the Democrats…but that might take centuries to resolve if ever.
I learned ages ago never to count on societal change…if we want a better life it’s up to us…if we worked our azz off and still are in the ‘gutter’ then the only other option is to leave, which ofc isn’t easy to do but the best solution to a bad trainwreck of a life.
Otherwise you have to hope you get lucky, win the lottery, have a rich relative who gives us that golden handshakes…but short of that, our situation is unlikely to improve on its own.
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we’re the ultimate invasive species, especially because we’re to blame for most other invasive species
no one excels at habitat destruction like humanity
I feel for you Eternal…what’s holding you back is your health. If you were fine, then nearly nothing could get in your way of changing your life.
If I was in your situation but with my normal health, then I’d do whatever I could to get away from the bad people around me.
I’d find a decent job in another town or city…. I’d turn over every rock, try to stay with someone that I was close to.
Your life was extremely unfair to you…I felt mine was too.
We could’ve probably been in a great place right now if not for all the troubles we experienced and the azzholes that played their part in wrecking our lives.
I was just doing some shopping in a major store earlier and then was wondering why am I even here? Life has passed me by for the most part.
I missed out on everything that’s good about it…great job, spouse, house, vacations, etc.
And I’m not saying that’s ‘perfect’ either….some of those things can be problems on their own…but still, I would’ve liked to have a normal life than to have fallen through the cracks.
The biggest ‘failure’ for me though was not locking in a great s/o when I had the chance. I could be broke/jobless, but so long as I have my degree and a significant other, I know I can make a good life for myself.
Now I just feel like a ghost…someone who’ve outlived his usefulness and living for nothing.
I keep going for others, but I wish I wasn’t around…few things interest me any more…aside from achieving some goals.
I’m just so tired- tired of struggling, tired of trying only to get nowhere, tired of meeting ppl only to find out they’re secretly evil and trying to manipulate or use you. tired of always being sick. tired of just a fucking shitty life.
I hear you…I usually begin with the default notion that any person I meet is probably an azzhole on the inside and out to undermine me and thus I am rarely surprised or disappointed.
Most people have proven me right time and time again. The main thing is to be the best person you can be…it’s like the example of lying…the truth is much easier to remember than a lie.
I’ve interacted with real liars and it’s crazy how bad their memories are and what they thought they said was contradictory to what was actually said, kind of funny too…but such people are scary and untrustworthy to say the least-and you never want them to have power over you like landlord or boss.
Rotten people eventually show their true face…but the key is to minimize any entanglements with them…don’t be their friend, don’t lend them anything, don’t count on them for anything-best to avoid really.
As for your situation I think of Maslow’s hierarchy of needs…many of us here are probably stuck in the lower rungs because of the way our life is.
Now for me-again I’m not giving advice to anyone else…and everyone is responsible for their own life decisions, but if my life was constantly in the lowest level and no matter what I did decade after decade and it didn’t change that’d be bad enough to consider exiting and it’s kind of my situation now.
But if my health gives out in any major way…then hell no will I keep going, for what exactly? What’s even worse is that one could be rich asf, but if you’re an invalid, stuck on machines, can’t do basics, that’s another pointless existence.
I’m going on cause my health is ok, not great, I have back issues and other problems but nothing that (for now, knock on wood) will put in the hospital bed…but if I do develop any serious, incurable problems, then that’s my redline…I’m out.
I think what stops most of us from going over the edge is fear…when we conquer that fear than we will find our real freedom/peace from this bad existence.
I’m sure you have your own good reasons for going…but for me, I’ve suffered enough and I don’t want to pile on more suffering with no rewards or payoffs.
our biggest “failure” was being born in the wrong generation, in the “wrong” country. you know when things were good? after WW2. Boomers had it SO fucking good, then they changed all the rules that helped them and got rid of them to screw over all the future generations. worldwide, boomers screwed over the future generations. worldwide, boomers are hated- and for a very good reason. now, i don’t hate every single boomer i meet IRL, but as a collective, they all voted for policies that screwed all future generations over.
a few countries are doing well- scandivania countries have much happier residents. why? wealth/income is more distrubuted. USA is about as bad as it gets when it comes to income disparity (aside from like Africa or such places).
Forgot to ask in my response above, what makes you keep ‘hanging in’? Maybe a latent love for life and hope it can get better? It’s kind of the case with me.
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve wished I was in someone else’s life that was doing better….but we’re stuck with what we have. Actually there are so many more lives far worse off than mine, I’m ‘rich’ compared to these billions of sad people.
Indeed I think some European nations (which are beautiful too), have figured out the best socio-economic system that is fair to most of its citizens. They’ve created a paradise on Earth for themselves…or as close as we can get it with our current situation.
The US is definitely one of the worst nations for income distribution thanks to the greed of GOP and incompetence of the Democrats…but that might take centuries to resolve if ever.
I learned ages ago never to count on societal change…if we want a better life it’s up to us…if we worked our azz off and still are in the ‘gutter’ then the only other option is to leave, which ofc isn’t easy to do but the best solution to a bad trainwreck of a life.
Otherwise you have to hope you get lucky, win the lottery, have a rich relative who gives us that golden handshakes…but short of that, our situation is unlikely to improve on its own.