I’m driving across the USA and I’m having the time of my life. The planet is beautiful. It’s the serenity I deserve that I search for. You know what? All I feel is tranquility because the epicentre of my humanity is connected to a higher truth.
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Travelling always feels good, we tend to forget problems of our life when we’re in moving state. It’s very intriguing. You know what, I have a theory. Maybe it’s related to our ancient nomadic lifestyle. We lived that way much longer than we have been living in settled down agricultural way. So travelling is deep in us. Settling down makes problems too settle down. Everything becomes a fixed issue. Fixed neighbors, fixed partner, fixed system. Travelling style is so much better in that sense. Here in India we have some tribes who still live nomadic way. They’re called ‘Banajara’, from whom Gypsies came. I used to fantasize joining them.
That’s amazing!!! You live in India!? Unreal!! That’s so cool! That’s the one country I was meaning to travel to it just never panned out the way I planned. Malaysia and Thailand both had so much Indian influence though. A lot of hinduism and buddhism. Especially at Batu caves the hindu influence was prominent and robust.
If I were you I would definitely try joining up with them. People always say you bring your problems with you when you travel somewhere else, but that’s fear of the unknown talking. A change of scenery can do wonders for the mind. Seeing and thinking different things every day rewires the brain.
You’re most welcome to come to India. It can be a spiritual journey.
I agree. I feel free from burdens of life when I’m travelling. Makes no sense why I travel so less. Guess I don’t want to reach somewhere. I want to keep travelling. Sometimes I go on a walk and keep walking for hours. What I hate most there is turning back. I want to just keep walking.
They’re a dying breed unfortunately. System and everything is against them. They don’t get travel permits. Officials harass them when they set up temporary camps on roadside. The items they manufacture for trade are obsolete in industrial age. Their generational skills have been termed illegal by law which has robbed many of livelihood. A father can’t even teach his son his skills because it will be termed “child labour”. I remember in childhood they used to come in our street every other month performing various acts like snake show, monkey show, walking on rope, self harm (it was fearsome. They used to hit themselves with hunters). Now someone rarely comes in once a year. I give them whenever I encounter them performing somewhere and I try to buy their products (they primarily make metal objects like hammer, chisel, knife, though other things too like flower pot, bamboo chair, religious idol figures) but I can see how out of place they’re in modern world.
That’s so interesting quaero. Everything about India is incredible—philosophy, spirituality, and especially the food. The monasteries and the ashrams have always fascinated me; to live such a devoted life to one idea or philosophy and to become proficiently skilled at ONE thing never fails to impress upon me the power of a resolute and focused mind. The shaman I’ve been working with for the past few years spent years studying under a renowned buddhist monk learning to meditate at a monastery in thailand. Then years alone meditating in the thai jungle.
To control the mind and not be beholden to its tempestuous nature is an unbelievable feat of cognitive ability. I believe consciousness supersedes all else as the eminent foundation of a life lived well. Consciousness and the soulmind are truly the only things that matter. Without your mental health, mindset and consciousness there is only death. I say this however I recognized, just now, the extravagant power of the heart beating in your chest. That thing will push you further in terms of survival than even the mind. I realize now that nothing and nobody can kill me or the immortal flame in my heart.
It would be amazing to meet you one day quaero. We could explore jaipur and rajasthan together.
The shaman looks like a wise and practiced person. I have wanted to work with someone, a guru or maybe an organization, but I could never develop that sense of trust with anyone. I know it’s a me thing because indeed there are genuine wise people in the world who actually help, but in the end ‘ekla chalo re’ (if no one, go alone) motto is probably not bad either for me.
That’s the finding of ancient religions too. Even scientific findings agree. What is observer effect but proof that observer creates the observed. There is a saying in Hinduism, which is an incredible saying: “Aham brahmasmi” — “I am God” (yes with capital G). It’s amazing to think we have this incredible resource called mind, always with us, which is capable of incredible feats, yet we dumb it down with all kind of beliefs.
Will be great to meet you too, zen (or killswitchon, as I remember). I remember you from ‘The Warm Room’ you once made. But I must warn you I am a rather boring person irl. Much of my world is only mind world. Rajasthan is a nice travel place with rich history. But I must say, if you wish to see religion and culture of India in its raw form, visit Banaras too.
Well quaero, I gotta tell you… This shaman is a ************ to deal with. I’ve learned a valuable lesson and it’s to always always always go it alone. Perhaps for a time, you can accept a momentary helping hand but in the end only YOU know what you need and what truth is. This shaman, as powerful as he is—and he is indeed powerful [I feel him in my body and soul and it’s a ***** to feel him at this point]. Most spiritual authority figures are manipulative in some capacity—we are our own shamans, our own gurus.
“Eklo chalo re” is EXACTLY it. I will actually remember this because it echoes my sentiment precisely. The only way is through and go through it a l o n e. People, other humans, just suck you into their vortex of doubt and ineptitude. A black hole of hatred and ignorance that never ends.
That’s incredible! I am God. Pure light of mind is the name of an In Flames song and it comes to mind when you speak of the transcendent capacity of the mind itself and it’s untapped resources to actualize thought into reality. You’re cool man. You have cool thoughts. I like the intellectual energy. It’s a refreshing perspective. I’ve had enough of the judeo christian simulacrum that has run its course. I’ve had enough of the ignorance of the west to the inherent value that Hinduism holds. There’s a reason it is the oldest known religion.
That’s where the riches are my friend. The treasure of the self is in the mind. I doubt you’re boring quaero. The mindscape and mind world—the seat of consciousness is where all the intrigue is. Noted. It seems Banaras is a new future destination.
i’m of the opinion that you don’t escape yourself wherever you go.
I would never want to be anyone but who the FUCK i am
I was really feeling it there. My apologies. I meant to say I enjoy my own presence so no need to escape.