deadlines are coming and going and the help i’m set to get still feels so far away.
i can only feel negative thoughts recently, ive been numbing my brain with social media, games, alcohol, and such.
i feel incapable of literally anything productive. i havent left my room today, hardly even left the bed. not unordinary.
havent shaved, brushed teeth, showered, did laundry, or did any of the work ive needed to do for a while now.
disgusting. my soap is out, havent even bought more. isnt that fucking gross?
everything is slippping away i want to die so bad its what any train of thought leads to now.
i dont think ill talk to anyone this weekend.
god knows i wont reach out. wont be reached out to haha.
ugh
everyday feels like the last in more than one way