The fact that I want to die and cannot make myself go through with it is laughable. What options are there for someone who only has the energy to let life pass but never actually live? I wish there was a pause button. Just stop long enough to catch my breath and come up with a plan wothout feeling overwhelmed by the fact that life is passing me by.
I feel like I’m in a long distance relationship with myself. Like half my soul is somewhere too far away to ever actually reach… Or some kind of poetic bullshit i dunno
*insert something useful here*
Ya know… so this post isn’t a complete waste of time
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here’s where I wish I knew how to share what I just did with the last two years, and I did it a few years of my 20s as well; nearly nothing. I went to therapy, tried to find something to do….. I was almost nothing, it was, as you say, a pause button. We figured out meds, and I got my head figured out.
but I have no idea how to get that to other people. Apparently I’m abnormally lucky to have what I’ve had. a roof, food, public assistance that seems to never dry up….. and I don’t know how I got it.