Was by living in a world of imagination. I remember well what a teacher wrote on a term report card when I was in third class – ” Being a dreamy boy” was the line in question. The translation of this line would be ” he lives in the imaginary world and not the real one”. A problem, any problem has to be caught early, if not caught early just like cancer it gets out of control and you die. This fucking propensity I had for imagination led to the inevitable namely hardcore suicidality. I recall an interview with Fellini about the time he took LSD under a doctors supervision. The LSD did very little for Fellini to which the doctor said “Mr Fellini the artist lives in the world of imagination, normal people don’t. Therefore this drug works for the normal but imagination inclined people not so much”. Over the years my own overactive imagination turned little problems into major ones. I would wager quite confidently that every Suicide in history had an overactive imagination which ultumately led to their demise.
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Well, I was certainly doomed. I often wonder if those things they called me, too much in my own head, were code for future suicidal person.
Like everyone saw this coming except me. Hence my isolation.
PS the Title didn’t come up on the post. It read – yet another way i went wrong….
Disagree. I don’t have much of an imagination. Pros: LSD works great. Cons: Still here.
I did, however, have lots of run ins with teachers, so maybe that’s the common denominator. They once gave me a hearing test because they thought I couldn’t hear teachers instruction. Turns out I just wasn’t listening.