I played a game for 3 minutes.

It was a free pokemon rom hack making pokemon a roguelike.

I didn’t really care for it all that much. Or I didn’t allow myself to get into it any.

Either way, streak is over. Lasted almost 2 months. I don’t really feel anything all things considered. I think I’ve already decided I’m over videogames honestly. I think watching others who are better at them than me play them are enough honestly.

I stayed home today, I feel like crap.

Not sure what to do anymore. I’m flat broke still, trying to find work to make more money to save. I’m going to find my own place once this lease is up. I’m going to probably just ghost most people and just try to build myself up, truly on my own. No more help from anyone, I just need to get my own shit together at this point.

I’m not suicidal, but I’m slowly back to feeling like I can’t enjoy anything anymore, that I’m wasting my life as is and that I need to really start to do some things to get myself to a better position in my life.

I really hate the necessity of money, the fact that the only way to be comfortable in life rn is to be rich enough to not have to worry about finances. I can see why people don’t want to get married or have kids anymore. Can bust your ass from the time you’re 18 and still not afford a house anymore. It’s just mad. Good jobs are impossible to find as it stands and now we’re looking at signs of a deflationary depression with the rising job cuts, it’s not going to be a good time for young people.