I made a promise to myself over 20 years ago that my life hinged on a very distinct timer. I have open angle glaucoma that I was born with and my vision has been dwindling pretty gradually over the last 40 years. I made a promise to myself that once all of my vision was gone, I would make my exit.
Things have progressed negatively in a very major way, and I probably have less than a year to express myself. So, here I am to hang out with you guys until the final days. I used to be so angry at the world for being so unfair, but now i’m just so tired. Too tired to fight, i’ve just given in to the inevitable.
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Funny how that anger gives way to apathy. When you don’t even have energy for any kind of emotion at all. I would point out that you’re not beholden to a promise you made to yourself 20 years ago if you’re not absolutely sure. I hope you find a bit of solace here. We’re a pathetic excuse for company, but at least you won’t be alone. Welcome and sorry.
I appreciate the kind words, but i’m sticking to my promise. I’ve made the appropriate preparations and nothing terrifies me more than living through eternal darkness.
If you’re sure, I get it. It’s your choice, and an understandable one. I hope you can find a little company here in the interim.