Honestly, I’m in a bad spot atm.
Some things are a bit better, but I’ve gone down the slump again.
I don’t know what to even do at this point.
I want to start to sell all of my things but it’ll take way too long to get rid of the things I have at this point.
I need a part time job to get extra money to try to start properly saving. I need to get my debts in order.
And yet I just lay in bed. I’m just tired man.
Tired of ny own thoughts. I know I’m a useless weakling. I’m overweight and hugely lacking in social skills.
I’ve seen so many others burst out of their shells, who just force themselves to get things done. It takes many years sometimes, but they figure it out. I feel I’m not one of those people.
I’d like to disappear, but it’s not like I can really take care of myself at all. I watch so many videos on the economy, how to start saving more money, how to improve in the career path I’m on. I’m trying to learn MacOS and Linux to really get more accustomed to different operating systems, but it’s not enough. I haven’t truly gotten anywhere.
It’s so irritating to feel this way. I’m not old, but not all that young either at this point, and I feel like I’m not truly living any kind of live worth living.
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well, you’ve got to figure out how to make the effort. I’m with you on tired, barely holding down the work I’m doing I’m so tired. Today was madness. I think a fair share of my office, our staff just got fed up and quit overnight. We’re so overloaded.
You’ve got to do the best you can with what you’ve got. I’m tired, still gotta make dinner and do some other chores, make do the best I can. What you can get done, that’s it, that’s what you can get done. It’s not a personal failing. It’s not a personal failing. It’s not a personal failing.
All day today I talked to people struggling, it’s a rough time right now. Recognize that you’re facing institutional failures, ones you had nothing to do with. All any of us can do is try to make best we can with what we get.
I know the issue is how discouraged you’re feeling, and that temptation is always there. Getting discouraged for me is time to check my self care. Am I eating enough? Sleeping? Getting enough time to clear my head? Those are key issues to function.
And hey, not young anymore, me too. Young people haven’t got a clue how to fix their bag. Being young right now sucks, one thing I’m thankful to not be. Older means experience, means harder to trick into working for nothing. Having survived is worth a lot, employers seem to think so too.
I don’t know what to tell you though, finding a good employer is like finding cheap food anymore; hard as hell and even if you do will it last?
You’re worth it though. This stupid economy is a horrible estimator of who has worth. It thinks Elon Musk deserves the highest compensation out of anyone. I’m sorry, he’s an idiot he does not deserve to make what I do a year in a few minutes. He can’t return that value, we’re all picking up the slack for idiots like him.
So no, if pay or recognition were indicators of worth, we’re in some sort of weird reality where those don’t apply. A good worker is worth a lot, it’s finding someone who knows that seems to be the trick.