I dance around it, complain about other things as if they are the main problem, but the real main problem between me and most of the species is that they don’t see the way I do. It’s taken me years of working on myself to try and express this, and I still don’t know if I’ll succeed.
Other human beings have a sort of intuitive sense for conforming. They see and hear things differently because they didn’t have to push those two senses like I did. Not to say either approach is better, just that I’m frustrated that they can’t see mine.
I wish I could think of a closer example than this, but I have to go with the only commonality between me and the two women who I try to relate to most often at work my team lead and supervisor. They’re close enough in age, we all follow true crime and they are a little politically saavy.
So we were talking about a particular case, and it showed me how they see differently. This is an active case, and the details don’t matter the difference does. It’s a murder one trial with the accused being a white man in his 20s. He’s also a fan of true crime, to the point of making a career studying it.
They were focused on how guilty he was, and that’s the mistake everyone makes in these cases. Remember, a little politically saavy. I get that they only really care about cases they are paid to, though I can’t imagine why since the agency doesn’t care about at least half of those.
They don’t play any games in their private lives, like video games, logic games, any of it, and it shows. The US court system is one of the most challenging logic games ever designed. It is forever being updated, and sometimes you get disconnected for some time and that’s just tough gravy.
This guy? He’s a powergamer, he studies the game. You should never take such a person for what they appear to be, they are the most manipulative human beings I’ve ever met.
So when I’m talking about him, his guilt is immaterial to the strategy being worked out now. Granted, I’m a spectator, but I care, this is my outlet to take apart public criminal trials. Some people like football.
Which means I spend way more time than I should trying to get into this guy’s head. and that’s where I stand apart from most of the species. I was looking at some old cases, thinking about what it felt like to look at those cases from several sides.
It happens dozens of times a day, in our regular clients; I see one version of them, my boss sees another.
So I just find myself apologizing, over and over. That’s what they really pay me for, to say what a truly sorry state we live in.
They can’t see it though, they just see the need to tighten the belt, consequences be damned I suppose.
It’s why I’ve always gotten along better with delinquents and other outcasts, because they don’t mind that I can get into the heads of people who don’t look like them.
It’s the normal people who are quietly disturbed, when they realize how out of touch they are.
I can already hear/read Eternaldarkness’ reply “They don’t give two shits how out of touch they are”…… I know that, it was for poetic symmetry.
I think it was Mary Poppins who observed that most people can’t see beyond the end of their own nose. Never thought that would be fundamental wisdom of the universe type stuff, but there we are.
Also; feed the birds, tuppence a bag, tuppence, tuppence, tuppence a bag, feed the birds.
I like birds.