I’m in school, spending more on tuition than I should, trying to get a degree that will let me get a job so I can make money so I can… I don’t know. Die happy? Retire? Help my community? To be fair, those sound appealing, but they’re not worth the pain I’m going through right now. I guess what really kept me going was just trying not to disappoint people. It’s too late now. I’m failing classes and I don’t see a way out. They tell me to get a job and try for internships and all that, but how can I when I don’t know if I’ll be in the same location or physical state in a few weeks?
My family doesn’t know yet. I guess I want to finish the semester so I can say I tried. And I don’t know my next steps.
Current thinking is switch to an easier major and start over basically, switch to 5 years and redo this semester, or enlist. Enlisting seems like the best option because I’ll have a little honor, food, a place to sleep, and a small but steady income to repay my family with. But then I’ll be leaving my friends behind; friends who have literally kept me alive for years. So should I be loyal, or should I repay my debts?
TLDR; I’m failing school. Keep trying or switch to the military, or something else?