Same here…though I don’t think I’d want to go through all the things I went through all over again.

If there was a way to change one thing and hop back to the present that’d be good, like to buy bitcoin for example. A lot of money would fix most of my issues, I just wanted an easy life.

Given that I’m in my 50s…many good opportunities are behind me, I truly have very little to live for apart from my family…even my job is on the edge atm.

Though luckily I have a side plan that could work out and change things-hopefully, but it’s a long shot so I’m not counting on it.

I think people who have ‘left this world,’ were pretty smart or maybe they were so desperate, they just had no other choice.

But by ‘smart’ I mean they probably realized as I have, that unless you are born into wealth, the game is rigged against you. Nothing comes easily unless you are also well-connected and can get high paying jobs.

Yes there are people who’ve beaten the odds, but 90% of people born low-income, end up poor in the end…few escape it.

When you’re poor you deal with all kinds of problems that the middle/upper classes never have to worry about.

It’s kind of like being a kid who’s the butt of jokes, and gets laughed at and is the last to figure it out.

Life is the same…if you’re an underdog, you deal with big problems and find little joy in life. But then you figure it out.

You realize no ‘god’ put you there. There’s no ‘higher purpose’…it’s just that your parents had you and you inherit all their problems along with their defective genes.

So the smartest person in the room is the one who realizes it’s all a sham, you got a bad hand dealt to you in the poker game of life.

You can keep playing it like a sucker…suffering, hoping your luck will change…or you have the brains and courage to leave the table.

Ofc it’s easier said than done…since most ways to leave are not easy which is why most of us keep going until things get so bad that we are forced to act…when living is intolerable…or we just get worse and worse and nature does us in somehow.

Or like in my case, we have attachments like family, who keep us around longer because we don’t want them to suffer and know they would if we left.

I can see why some people turn to religion…they like being told everything will be ok and they will be rewarded in some never, never land.

As a side note, it wasn’t all bad I had some good times and experiences too and that’s what keeps me going, the hope that things will get better and I’ll find my s/o to share it with.

Given all the problems in the world I have to say that western civilization is amazing and must be protected at all costs from savages that seek to destroy it.

I had a great upbringing and really like our culture and that is a gift worth passing down/sharing. What’s also good where I am at least, is that they offer a way out too…which is the cherry on top.

I’m giving myself a few years to see if I can put myself at a higher level than I’m at now, but if I can’t…then I’ll probably opt for that exit plan…while it hasn’t been ‘perfected’ at least it’s medically supervised so in case something goes awry, then they can help you out.