I literally just got out of the psych hospital last week. And the WHOLE time I was there, I got told “but you look SO HAPPY!” by a million and one fucking morons, like psych doctors, whose literal JOB is to help those who are depressed and suicidal . Despite the fact that I told them I’m depressed AF and tried to get to the roof to jump off. Aaaand NO ONE fucking believed me. Cuz “I look SO happy.”
Yes, fellow SPers, you’ve all read my posts the past year. You all know just how fucking “HAPPY” I am. -_-
These fucking morons.
I swear, we should strip them of their titles and stick THEM into a psych ward, and see them try getting out or getting taken seriously (they won’t). Bc NO ONE takes depressed/”crazy” ppl seriously.
And all these morons wonder WHY America is #1 in mass shootings. It’s bc NO ONE gets fucking taken seriously, so then you have these MF’ers who say “I”ll fucking show you!”
25 comments
Sorry you went through that. You’re right. No one takes us seriously. Somehow those psych ward doctors are tye worst culprits, even when it’s their jobs. People process their pain differently. My odd quirk is that at my absolute lowest I begin to have uncontrollable laughter. I also find miserable things in general funny, even my own pain. But having a happy mask on doesn’t mean you aren’t suffering. And you’re justified to feel angry when people think it does.
I’ve been on both sides of that, two years working in a hospital, something like a month checked into the severe ward.
Yesterday I think they wanted to check me in again, they sometimes do. I had this whole sympathy for the devil thing, I understand workplace shooters recently.. and I couldn’t shoot anyone if I tried.
If I could…… fuh, I’d be a different person. Now it’s about to be 8 years out of the hospital, and I wish I could say it gets any easier.
” I understand workplace shooters ”
–same. i kinda understand mass shooters and killers. not that i’d ever do it but like i can understand the frustration, the straw that broke the camels back for some of them, like in the forensic files cases or whatever. ESP given some of these ppl’s backgrounds n shit
oh funny thing- there was a social worker or therapist who checked herself in- she’s like “i help ppl but now i’m in here” O_o
and there was a dr (MD) who checked herself in. now they know what abuses go on in psych wards to psych patients. esp that MD. but she was also a cuunt so i don’t give 2 shits about her.
“Institutionalization” is the word for it, it happens at the same rate to guards and prisoners in jails, and a psych ward is a fancy jail half the time.
speaking of- i totally am on the side of Luigi. fuck these greedy asshole CEOs.
Medicine is, unfortunately, a business. And not everyone benefits from seeing you get better.
Honestly what the US gov and medical field is doing to American people is atrocious. The only way out is to push for free universal healthcare (UH).
They scare-monger people into rejecting it because they stand to lose billions or trillions of dollars.
But practically all western nations have UH and they pay a tiny fraction of what Americans do and still get good coverage. Ofc it’s not perfect and that’s because they want to make it fail so they can also bring in more privatization.
However it’s bad people behind it, not the system…which can be fixed to the high level of functionality it was before.
Yeah but the problem is that the American public is DUMB AS SHIT and keep voting for these assholes who literally tell them we won’t give you universal healthcare, that they’re going to cut benefits, social security, welfare, etc. Americans are the idiots that WANT this to happen and vote for the assholes who carry it out. Like how dumb can you be?
Other countries’ citizens don’t seem, as a whole, as dumb as Americans. Americans are a special breed of stupid. We really are. And this is why we still DON’T have Universal Healthcare or social safety nets that literally almost every other country has. Even “shithole” 3rd world countries have UH. But America IS the shithole country, where literally HALF of the population is living paycheck to paycheck.
Agreed, the two-party system is a complicated mess. When people vote Democrat, they expect UH and protection of abortion rights. But the party internally has moved to the far radical Left. Just look at the lunatics they allowed in.
Meanwhile the Republicans are the party of the rich elites who are pro-oil, pro-military, anti-social programs like you were also pointing out.
But when both sides get into power, the only people they really serve is themselves. And let’s assume for a moment there are people genuinely trying to deliver good things to most Americans, they’re blocked by politics or don’t have the votes.
They voted for Trump because Biden was a senile moron, and Kamala is another empty suit who’s only claim to fame is her mindless cackling.
Honestly you guys deserve better (don’t we all?). You are right that many Americans are stupid, but there are also many smart ones that do want to make the US better and equal to other western nations.
UH is really a no-brainer, like having clean water and electricity.
The reason Trump won is that Dems has two terms to implement the changes Lefties were looking for and they did nothing.
Not to mention when nations are at war they tend to vote right wing…given all the conflicts around the world, and other problems Dems ignored, it made is easy for Rep’s to win.
It’s bc we don’t even have a “two party system.” What we have is a ONE party system, bc BOTH parties tailor to the rich. NONE of those MF’s in the Senate or Congress or Presidency or VP are about helping the masses. It’s all about enriching themselves.
Americans are DUMB AF bc they keep thinking that THEY’RE on the “right” team (both the left and right) and think the “other” team is always wrong and bad. Which is EXACTLY what the rich want- to keep us fighting and divided amongst each other.
Like how are ppl THAT fucking stupid- they ALWAYS think “everything is the Dems fault” or “everything is the right wingers fault.” No you idiots- it’s bc Americans are too stupid to realize BOTH parties are shit and are bought by the rich- BOTH fucking parties. There is NO party that is about improving the lives of the poor or middle class.
I really want to leave the US bc it is the US that is a shithole country- when was the last time your country actually FIXED the goddamn roads, fixed potholes, fixed bridges so that ships can’t just smash into it and the whole damn bridge comes down? When was the last time we actually had properly made and maintained infrastructure? Or the govt gave you universal healthcare or universal maternity leave? In the US, if you get sick, you are SOL. These “shithole” 3rd world countries Americans keep referring to actually HAVE Universal Healthcare and most have paid maternity leave as well. But not the US- the richest country in the world. What does that tell you- the richest country in the world can’t fucking “afford” to give you healthcare, but a 3rd world “shithole” country can?
When was the last time you could afford fucking RENT or buy a house? When was the last time you didn’t have to worry about the price of groceries? Eggs cost as much as gold these days. And ppl don’t wonder WHY?
Congress isn’t broken- it’s doing exactly it was set up to do- protect the rich and make the rich richer.
I hate BOTH the Republicans and Democrats- BOTH the ppl in Congress/Senate/Presidency AND the American populace. I can’t stand right wingers nor can I stand left wingers anymore. I used to be a progressive lefty but I now fucking hate the liberals as well.
And you hit the nail on the head- Dems keep SAYING they want to give us UH, increase minimum wage, etc etc and….- they did NOTHING. Not just 4 years during Biden but NOTHING was done for the masses under Clinton or Obama. I know lefties LOVE Obama- I did and voted 2x for him- but when you really take a closer look at what he has done- OR Clinton or ANY of the Dems prior- what HAVE they done? They got us into MORE wars, MORE debt, CUT more social services. The Dems haven’t done shit for the masses for since 1979.
d by MSM. And both parties are WRONG in so many of the policies they support- which are all propaganda they have been led to believe.
And I hate the Republicans as well bc BOTH parties- and I mean the American people- have lost their fucking BRAINS and can no longer THINK anymore. BOTH parties have been brainwashe
I hate both Dems and Reps, which I guess leaves….no one -_-
“They voted for Trump because Biden was a senile moron, and Kamala is another empty suit who’s only claim to fame is her mindless cackling.”
“The reason Trump won is that Dems has two terms to implement the changes Lefties were looking for and they did nothing.”
–EXACTLY. I could not vote for EITHER during this past election nor the last. It’s like Nina Turner I think who said back in the last election- “you’re voting for a bowl of shit or half a bowl of shit.”
Like did we have much of a choice? Trump is shit but so was Biden and Kamala is even WORSE than Biden. Remember Biden said the first thing we should cut is Social Security? There’s literal VIDEOS of him saying that OUT LOUD in front of a mic- on purpose- (this was said before he became old and senile)- and yet the Dems think it’s Death if Trump became president. Well Biden was elected, not Trump, and how did our economy do? Oh that’s right- the rich got even richer and the poor got WAY poorer.
And Kamala- She is THE choice of the rich bc she will literally say anything and do everything for the rich. And has a 100% track record for doing so- which was why she was chosen as VP in the first place. And no, Biden did NOT want Kamala as VP, never did. But he did as he was told bc the rich bought him decades ago. Kamala- SHE was the one that had the most BILLIONNAIRES donating to her campaign, not Trump. Not that I like Trump but they are BOTH fucking awful and ONLY care about enriching themselves and serving the rich.
The American ppl need to WAKE TF up- there is NO “left vs right”- it’s the RICH VS POOR. The rich don’t give AF if you’re a republican or democrat bc they own BOTH parties.
Yep you summed it up very well. Both parties are for the rich and powerful and to f*ck over the ‘little people.’
In a way they mock us-they put these clowns and puppets like Biden who isn’t even qualified to have a driver’s license, given his senility, but we had him as a candidate to lead the only superpower in the world? It’s probably a huge inside joke with the elites.
We’d need an ‘outsider’ like Ross Perot (not actually that idiot). He showed us that is it possible to monkey around with the voting system in the US and get some longshot elected.
I’ve always felt the US should have a third party that takes the best ideas from both sides and that would be popular with most people.
For example, I’m pro-war (against real enemies), pro-guns (for self-defense), but also pro-abortion, UH, social programs, taking care of the elderly, homeless and mentally ill.
I’m also for introducing legislation that removes all religion from gov’t and forbids religious people from having any influence in the halls of power.
If “our side” had some billionaires, who couldn’t be corrupted and would be willing to run, I feel it could shake up the one-party system.
The trouble is that when people become rich asf, they tend to mingle with other wealthy types, share their ideas and very soon are in the one-party club too.
Also trying to claw your way up the ranks within either party is really hard also…many want to keep you down and these people have the ability, power and connections-like the mafia, to take out people they don’t like. Think of the people the Clintons ‘su.icided.’
Then there’s also the idea of Revolution, but I doubt it’d work…since the military is in their pocket.
So we’re all stuck forced to fight the system and get rich ourselves, or suffer from it…or escape (as you said) by moving to a better country. Though I’d avoid Europe for now…bad stuff going on there.
What’s going on in Europe? I’ve been away for a month so have no idea what’s going on news-wise. Are the Europeans revolting/striking? Or are the rich doing bad shit to the masses there? I feel like it’s gotta be one of those things. And unfortunately, unlike the French, Americans are just too stupid and too cowardly to even form a strike or protest. Sigh…
Europe–terrorist attacks, stabbings, gang violence…it’s a shiitshow right now…car-ramming yesterday in Germany dozens injured, many kiiled…bad stuff.
Don’t mind me if I don’t reply soon. I visit here rarely and randomly.
Plainwhite- Oh I know medicine is a business- it’s utterly disgusting how ppl are treated just so these fuckers at the top- CEOs, owners, etc- can get a few more bucks. Our peasant lives literally mean NOTHING to those soulless assholes. They are living the best lives- lots of $$$, no guilt, no remorse, no soul. And yet WE here are the ones who are depressed and suicidal.
Sometimes I ask myself why do I even come here…except for the fact that there were a few times in my life I was right on the edge with some others here.
Otherwise atm, I’m ‘ok’…for now. Yes I still have problems but nothing in comparison to others and I don’t say that in any condescending way but with humility and also because I know I was pretty close myself.
I truly am sorry for what you’re going through as one human to another.
I guess in my little world I’ve considered myself lucky…I’ve been handed one life-line after another-mostly from family helping me and vice versa (I helped them too in their time of need) and found myself going from one safe plateau to another.
And when things have gotten really bad for me I was able to escape most of those hellholes I’ve been in to end up in less bad places. I’m not where I’d like to be but things are improving and my side-gig is showing real promise, but it’ll take some time.
I wish this could be the same for others…but the world is a harsh place, unless you surround yourself with good people who are resourceful and kind.
I was watching an interesting show about couples and their relationships. The way they look at each other, the way they speak, you know they have a lot of history behind them.
And that’s the problem with the world…making good relationships takes time, sometimes years…otherwise we’re just strangers/nobodies to those we see as nobodies. I feel bad for those who haven’t cultivated good relationships.
But apart from family and significant others, I think it’s rare to be able to count on friends to be there…aside from just ‘being a friend’…rarely does it cross into family type bonds.
Anyways, while we the people here mostly get along, some have differences, I feel that I have some sense of concern/care for those who I have no issues with. And I truly hope they are able to improve their lot in life or find peace in other ways.
It wouldn’t take much for my little world to fall apart either but I’ve been doing the needful, staying on top of my job and everything else to prevent that. I’m just waiting for my “ship to come in” as the old saying goes, then I’ll be good.
You’re here bc there’s very FEW places where depressed and suicidal ppl can ACTUALLY talk about feeling depressed and suicidal without being forced to “think positive” or that “life is great!” blah blah crap.
Indeed…others don’t want to deal with people real issues and feelings, they want to gloss everything over and pretend everything is peachy-keen…until it happens to them.
that’s the thing- no one gives a shit until it happens to THEM. and even then, i’ve met depressed and chronically ill ppl who were assholes/dismissive of other’s depressions or health issues. like WTF? shouldn’t THEY of all fucking ppl, understand depression or chronic illness and should know better? NOPE. these ppl only care about themselves- THEIR issues are legit but not YOURS. it’s come to a point where i’m at a “fuck everyone” stage.
Sad but true…we don’t raise kids to learn to be sympathetic to other people’s suffering. If they haven’t experienced it, they cannot relate and would treat people like crap or with indifference because they didn’t understand.
Sort of like arrogant Conservatives who look down on the poor or those who’s lives were diminished by health problems.
I had my own share of health issues, it’d take too long to get into but long story short, everything you mentioned I lived through also.
If someone hasn’t experienced chronic back pain for example, they have no fkg idea of the pain and suffering one goes through. And they look at you like you’re lying (like my managers) fortunately I had medical reports to back it.
Only those who have gone through bad experiences, physical/mental could relate and be truly understanding.
However you are also right that there are people who themselves have suffered but then have no sympathy for others…it’s because they’re just evil and selfish by nature.
I have a relative like that…she takes and takes, but never gives back. I spent countless hours talking to her about her life issues, giving her support/councilling. But the few times in my life I needed an ear, she’d just tell me off in the meanest way and hang up on me.
At the same time though, she’s burned her bridges with a lot of people and has few people she can rely on…so people like that end up effing themselves over.
I was wondering where you were.
Christmas effect? People’s happiness and over-excitement around this time is artificial. Actually everything about people is artificial. They don’t have a soul to feel or generate any of this. We imagine a soul in them. Only you have soul and everything else is vision.
I have mixed feelings about the US in general.
I’m painfully aware of some of the advantages we have here, like proper freedom of speech and certain rights being protected by law. But yeah, worker’s rights and the healthcare system here is shit. I can’t speak on other places in the world for the US’ health care system is all I know, but yeah, people are afraid to call out sick because they don’t want to pay insane hospital fees/lose their jobs.
I know someone who’s going to be a mom in a few months who only gets like 6 weeks of maternity leave. Just insane bs.
The political system is also garbage, I’ve never trusted it. I grew up not caring about politics due to my upbrining and now after learning a lot more about the processes involved and the like, I’m growing to despise the major political parties. Hell, I only registered to vote to what I thought at the time was to maintain a long standing friendship, all to not be able to vote anyway. I don’t care about the major parties, but I’ve seen Jill Stein ( I think that’s her name) and some others that tend to run and barely get a couple hundred thousand votes. Politics here are a song and dance and don’t care for the issues of the people who make millionaires into billionaires.
I don’t see myself owning property up here, or having a family here, if I even have a girlfriend before I turn 45 or something.
I may just take advantage of US money being stable and still the world’s currency, and just trying to make something reasonable out of my life before buying property outside the US and downsizing significantly.
I don’t know where I’d go. I’ll visit home (which for me is outside the continental US) from time to time, get property there probably.
I’m slowly seeing that I’ll be like some of my single uncles. No wife/girlfriend, no kids, unless something drastic happens in the next few years.
I really don’t know what my future will look like at this point and it makes me angry.