sometimes it is just too late isn’t it? my social skills can’t be salvaged, so employability is in the gutter. i already knew that. i really want to confide in someone, i want the ability to, it’s like a superpower to me. i wish there were more websites like this, i can’t seem to find anything else apart from the popular one that’s been in the news.
i wish i could telepathically communicate my ideas to people, i can’t get over my barriers. i would be okay with not saying a word for the rest of my life if i could. i have been asleep for years. what’s going to happen when i wake up? if i do?
in my dreams, people with blank faces tell me i’m special. that they love me. i embrace someone, but eventually i wake up crying.
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Yeah. Talking to people is hard. People are hard to understand in general. It really is one of those skills that just get developed naturally. It depends on what situations you’ve been. It also doesn’t mean that it’s impossible to be employed. Actually you learn a lot about talking to people when you’re on a job. Maybe that might help. Finding the job will be the hard part.
They seem like pleasant and sad dreams. I’m sorry that it’s so hard when you wake up. Hope that someday you don’t have to be asleep to get that. Hope things get better for you. Also really like the song. Mid 90s to Mid 2000s rock is pretty great. Got to look into this band.
i learn a little from observing, but i should do more. i’m hopeful that i’ll be comfortable enough to open up while volunteering at an animal rescue, i start tomorrow. this swedish band was short-lived from looking at the comments. the video i linked actually has a slightly faster tempo, there’s another recent and better restoration on yt.
That’s great news. Let us know how volunteering goes.
So… you’re probably never going to be how you feel you “should” be. But there’s generally always things you can work on, and work-arounds for your specific issues. If you can accept that you have those specific issues, that you didn’t choose them, that you may need specialist support, but that you also possess strengths that make you valuable. You may be able to find a place in society. It just won’t be “the norm”.
How much have you looked for people with your specific difficulties? Because they may find it easier to relate than those who are depressed for other reasons. Your written communication skills at least seem perfectly adequate. Maybe that can be a bridge?
It’s normal to want to be loved, to be held. I guess for some that’s far more of a search than for others, but doesn’t necessarily mean it’s impossible.