their life will get drastically better and they won’t be depressed anymore? Maybe the young ones have hope. But for people >40…?
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their life will get drastically better and they won’t be depressed anymore? Maybe the young ones have hope. But for people >40…?
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Well, for me it’s not really about depression, if you mean actual clinical depression, which I’ve never suffered from — not that I don’t have other life-depleting issues. I’m actually over 50 now, and I see no hope whatsoever in my life getting better. I guess a lot of money might help for a while at least, but it wouldn’t really solve anything in the long run for me. My personal view is that young people shouldn’t throw in the towel if at all possible, because life can change quickly. It’s happened to me more than once that things were hopeless and then by luck and some work on my part, things got better for a while, so I made it a lot longer than I thought I would.
I guess I’m technically on the young side and I admit I can be delusional in this regard, but I figure we have to hold on to hope otherwise the torture hurts more. Like literally if you’re chained to a wall and being whipped you have 2 choices, you can abandon hope or you can dream of escape. (Or the 3rd option is figure out a way to kill yourself but ig we haven’t figured it out)
Beyond plain delusion, I do think there’s logic to hoping for some sort of happiness, especially if you were once happy. Even the most depressed of us have moments where we get a random good feeling for a flash. Imagine if you can beat depression and those random good feelings are more frequent. I think it can gain momentum. Drastic improvement? Sure why not, anything’s possible.
well if you’re young, have hope. i think the young should have hope.
I mean most of my hope hangs on other people dying before me, and me getting to the money before the debt collectors. So it depends on the day how optimistic I am about how optimistic I am about that happening.
Or me finding a job that pays enough for me to reach escape velocity…… same probability issues. Gotta get rid of debt, escape Oklahoma, not necessarily in that order.
My therapist has brought up that I could escape and still be depressed, I don’t know. It’s all a house of cards is the thing, my mortgage hangs over me like a dark shadow, as do utilities. If I moved to the country I could at least get a partial solar and well set up, and I’d have septic. I’d still like to be tied to the grid, but off grid electric is possible at least.
If I owned everything for cash outright no one is showing up to take it is my point. It might be a shed, but it’d be my shed.
On the other hand, I live a charmed life, and could I really live that primitively? The only way to know is to try and no one wants to let me.
well you could escape Oklahoma but if you don’t have the money to live a good life, then yes, you’d still be depressed. people don’t realize just HOW much money contributes to depression, and consequently, to happiness, or the lack thereof.