Why does life have to be so sucky? Like tons of stress, worries, money worries, health issues, etc. Just a litany of crap and more crap in our lives? I mean look- most of us are here with REAL LEGIT issues that leads us to have depression- whether it’s a shitty job, lack of a job, shitty pay, shitty boss, shitty asshole neighbors, or our shitty lot in life. Our depression isn’t going to be gone or solved unless our REAL life issues gets solved. And many of our life issues are hard or near impossible to “fix” or get rid of.
Anyhow, feeling bah humbug right now. Also just exceedingly frustrated with life/people/drs. -_-
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1. Im very sorry you feel this way. I get it. I feel the same.
2. For what its worth, I like you, and always appreciate your posts 🙂
3. I watched a documentary about eccentrics lately. One of them was a man who decided to quit his six figure job and live homeless inside of a cave in the deserts of Arizona. He left his cave often, riding a bicycle into town to visit the library. He spent his time educating himself about all kinds of things, and used the library’s computer to write a blog. This guy was VERY happy. He had no money, no home, no social status. But you could see nothing but pure joy on his face…perhaps bc he is free of the stress involved with all the things you mention.
It makes me wonder if following the same path would make me happier or not.
2- thanks :). i do feel like my existence doesn’t matter -_-
3- well that guy HAD a 6-figure salary and was stressed and miserable. so being a “homeless” hermit in a cave worked for him. if he went to the library often, to use the computer and write blogs, he must be keeping fairly sanitary and clean somehow. anyway, u could try it, but it’s YMMV- what works for 1 person may not work for someone else.
wait- in the deserts of AZ? idk about that story- I’ve lived in AZ and it is HOT AF during the day, and is cold AF during the night if he’s out in a cave. And is very windy, with sand flying in your eyes. That occurs in regular AZ in the suburbs let alone all the way out by a cave. How does he bicycle that far? AZ is VERY spread out, and there’s lots of driving just to get to a store or library or drs office, even in living in the suburbs let alone far away in a cave. He’d have to bike for many hours just to get to the library and back. And without AC and water, you can get dehydrated and die very quickly in AZ. So idk about this story… It sounds like one of those “fluffly” feel-good live-minimalist YT/TikTok stories…
Yeah thats true. Very true. All I mean to suggest is that maybe the thibgs we assume make us happy actually dont
well not if he’s stressed. sure, he was making good money and prolly had a good title, but having no life and working like a dog to make the 6 figure salary isn’t going to make most ppl happy.
but yes, i get what you’re trying to say. i mean i know “money doesn’t make ppl happy” but i sure af would rather HAVE money than not (assuming i didn’t have to work like a dog in a shit company with shit bosses, shit coworkers and shit hrs) 😛
Suicide hotline, I finally picked the call back up today. I had been avoiding it, just denying myself that outlet because as long as I did I didn’t talk about how unhappy I am.
I feel so trapped right now. A week into quitting, so that’s a thrill. Also not getting much out of the job market, and it looks like we’re on the verge of a huge recession or depression. Layoffs everywhere.
I don’t know what is in my attic, but it is making squeeking noises.
I keep trying to figure out how far back I’d have to go to avoid this outcome, and it’s at least 20 years ago. I really would have needed to start working on getting out from the minute I arrived in this hellhole of a state, which was 29 years ago. I ask you; what 7 year old has that kind of organized thinking?
Yet I think I knew about it, even then. My stomach hurt like hell the night we arrived. I don’t remember having nearly the health problems I’ve had ever since we got here.
I feel like there are two options at this point; buy a grave or rob a bank. However I don’t think banks keep enough cash on hand anymore for even that to be a workable strategy. Maybe kidnap a wealthy person? I’m brainstorming what kind of crime I’d have to work to get out of this.
I have this song stuck in my head called Queen of Hearts;
“Playin’ with the Queen of Hearts
Knowin’ it ain’t really smart
The Joker ain’t the only fool
Who’ll do anythin’ for you
Layin’ out another lie
Thinkin’ ’bout a life of crime
‘Cause that’s what I’ll have to do
To keep me away from you”
I don’t know what it takes, but crime seems as likely an out as any other.