I really need to get a handle of my drinking. Yesterday I bought a bottle of rum on my way home from work. This morning Ive woken up with the worst headache. My wife is understandably angry at me. Ive drunk texted my boss and dont remember it (thank goodness I said nothing too crazy and sound normal). Just shame, guilt, anxiety, and body aches. I drink to feel better…but I dont, lol. I need to stop.
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Dude if you decide to go clean, I’m behind you 100%. Take it from me, an ex alcoholic (clean 3+ years) that as bad as depression is for me now, it was 10x worse when I was drinking. I don’t just mean being drunk or hungover, but I mean it makes fundamental changes to your brain chemistry that send you down the abyss.
All the same, I get it that you need something to make you feel better. That’s why I switched to (mostly harmless) drugs. Next time you want to take a shot of whiskey, pop a benadryl instead. It’s not ideal but it’s better than alcohol, and it can help you wean yourself off the dependence, since benadryl isn’t addictive.
It’s a razor’s edge we’re straddling. On one side is suicidal depression that will kill us, and on the other side is chemical addiction that’ll kill us even faster. Finding the right balance of safe drugs (for some people it’s prescription meds) is incredibly hard even with doctors monitoring you. One thing’s for sure though, alcohol is poison.
So much for my high horse lol. Getting off alcohol is the 1 thing I’m proud of, so giddyap to me. Maybe it doesn’t make a difference if we’re all heading for doom, but sometimes it can feel good to take back some control. Go for it!
Thank you for putting in the time to say all of this. Quitting alcohol is absolutely something to be proud of, and you should be. Great advice, too! Thanks again
I went through one overindulging in alcohol period in my life, after my divorce, but I was always painfully shy about anyone seeing me that way. My uncle and granddad died from alcoholism, though my uncle didn’t die of it until after my overindulging phase it was probably obvious that he would even then.
I never got to meet my granddad because of alcohol, probably why I’ve always been cagey about it. I didn’t get that deep, to be honest, because I had other substances at the same time like weed and benedryl. Oh and fake weed, stay away from fake weed that stuff is the worst in the world.
Anyway what sobered me up was that I had taken some old friends in who had been homeless and they wrecked my house. So clearly my judgement had been impaired and kicking them out was just the sobering up I needed. I think that’s how it went, this was all back in 2011. It still took me another year to get off weed.
Im sorry to hear about your Uncle and Grandfather. Substitution isnt the best idea, but its not the worst either. Theres a weed store right next the 7-11 where I live, maybe Ill check it out.