I had to accept my father and I have an aversion to each other. I convened many a camp David, in what proved to be vain attempts at establishing civil relations but had to accept we repel each other, magnet- like, it was decreed by fate that we couldn’t get along. Such is life.
With my favourite of favourites, my first choice , it was the opposite. I was drawn towards her, magnet- like. It was decreed by fate that we would get together. Of course that evaporates after a few months, such is life.
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I’m interested in this favorite of favorites, any brightness in the darkness is interesting of course
To be honest it reminds me of a romance I had when I was young that may have ruined me, oh she was something else, entranced me she did. To this day I can’t remember how, I suspect it was something in her smell, to be young and capable of being entranced like that.
It was too much for my young heart, and of course by the time I came to myself she was long gone. And that’s just one of the great regrets that I have constructed this giant tragedy in the shadow of. I will never know what we might have had. I screwed it up because I was a coward.
I couldn’t chase the right smell to save my life then, and I still don’t know if I know how to now. I’ve always been a fool.
of course I’m settled down romantically now, but smell is just a stand in for my perceptive ability which is obviously addled.
The favourite of favourites I was impelled towards naturally .Like your story when I was youngish, that intensity can’t materialize over 30. My heart just beat faster around her, soppy as it may sound.