Today is the day when I finally get all of my bad prison tattoos covered-up! Its taken years, and ive had to save up a ton of money for it. But its something I had to do for myself. Im going to feel SOOOO much better about myself after the day is done! Excited.
But I mention this here because I havent been any different from the rest of you. I was a drunken pessimist that had given up on life and the world. It turned out, climbing out of the hole is possible, although difficult. It isnt my intention to ever insert toxic positivity into this place, I know what that feels like. I just want you to consider that maybe, just maybe, some things are more possible than you believe.
Much love to you all
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Holy cow that’s awesome. You’re literally erasing the past & reclaiming a part of yourself. You oughta celebrate by heading to the beach so you can strip down and show the world what they’ll never know.
Also I never consider your optimistic posts to be toxic positivity. You’ve done your time in hell with the rest of us, and the fact that you’re climbing out is an inspiration. So keep it coming!
Question… was there 1 event that activated your second wind, your drive to beat this? Or was it a slow change of attitude that took hold? I’ve been struggling in spurts so I know I have some fight left, but it’s been getting weaker.
The event that changed things drastically for me was getting sober. Drinking or smoking weed or drugging effects your mind. Even when you arent buzzed or high, it messes with your brain chemistry bad. After some time sober, I regained a desire to have a life. I used to complain, but I wasnt doing enough to change my circumstances bc I had just sort of given up.
I am going to die someday. I dont want to get to my death bed regretting a life that I couldve had.
Sobriety is a huge game changer for sure. Alcohol is suicide in a bottle. I haven’t gone the weed route but I hear it has cumulative effects that change your entire mind as well. Heck, the same goes for basically every chemical, but those two (depressants) seem to be particularly bad just because they seem so harmless, they’re readily & cheaply available, and once you’re hooked it’s not like you can easily walk away since society has normalized both.
Quitting alcohol saved my life, but since then I’ve found ways to fill the need with other drugs & destructive behavior. I tell myself as long as I don’t relapse on the bottle I’m safe right? pft
I think the key is once you get sober you have to keep your momentum going, like you’re doing, making real changes in life. That’s the only way to escape the pit. With me, I got sober but since my circumstances didn’t change I found myself repeating the same descent that led me to alcoholism in the first place. I couldn’t keep the upward momentum.
You literally get to redefine yourself for yourself and give the world a new perspective of who you are.
Congratulations on your sobriety! Every day a positive choice in favor of you. So powerful and life affirming. Totally worth it.
Let us know how the new paint turns out!