I worry about a lot of things.
I think about the future a lot.
I’m not handy like my dad is.
I can barely cook, my mom has to walk me through dishes.
I’m not good at cleaning, all things considered. My mom’s good at that.
I’m shit with vehicles in general. My parents and siblings are better with that.
I’m shit when it comes to relationships and women. Siblings are better when it comes to that, too.
I’m a tech guy, so I at least have that going for me, but I know I’m going to be that type in the future, where things get so far ahead of me, I’ll be unable to navigate in the future.
I worry about my parents. I’ll likely be the only one of my siblings without kids, so there’s a high chance I’ll be doing the bulk of taking care of my aging parents in the near future, and idk how I feel about that. I love my parents, I have good parents, but I feel so unprepared for the latter half of my life.
I am struggling pretty bad monetarily. I don’t know if I can sustain this.
I am in a financially shit position right now. It will take decades to pay off debts I have, and I would like to be able to take care of my nephews and nieces in the near future as well.
How the hell am I supposed to find a 2nd job in this shit job market? How can I get myself in a better financial position when shit is so fucked economically? I’m not trying to make excuses at this point, because I don’t do have much responsibility in the grand scheme of things right now, but fuck me, I’m hanging on by a thread atm.
Part of me wants to just go ahead and sell everything I have, but I don’t even have the ability to do that properly.
I am not sure what else to do.
I already don’t sleep much.
If I wind up dead because of my health conditions that would only make it worse for my family, so I have to get fit again. I have to be able to provide for my family. I need enough money to be there in person for someone who’s been there for me at my lowest point.
So much I want to do, so much I still need to figure out.
How do people juggle all of these things normally?
I feel like I’m going insane sometimes. I think I already am insane, but just keeping it to myself. Maybe I really should start writing again, to offload my thoughts like I used to… Music writing, poem writing, story writing… It all probably kept me from losing it like I’ve been lately.
I appreciate the lurkers and commenters out there, I think this is the only thing I’ve consistantly done to try to help myself.
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Well, the skills you don’t have are still skills you can work on. Working on cars didn’t come naturally to me, but I worked on it and I’ve gotten a lot better at it. You’ve got to expand your skillset, it’s the only way to improve your situation (usually, sometimes people get lucky and get rich.)
What with everything getting expensive, and also I’ve noticed a lot of people getting less competent, getting skills is a good investment.
I’m not sure about a second job, because you can get overextended physically and emotionally. It might be a better idea to get a better paying first job. Another option is to look at expenses, and cut.
Take the debt a day at a time, and a payment at a time. If you can’t pay, it’s completely okay to tell a creditor to screw themselves politely. You’ve got to eat, and keep trying to find work, have a place to live and so on, if you can’t do those things they won’t get paid down the line.
I’ve got creditors I’ve kept on the line for years because of the lousy state of the economy, it isn’t great but they loaned me money knowing the state of the economy. My dad is always one to remind me that money isn’t emotional, it’s transactional.
I hope that helps.
Appreciate the insights as always, heartlessviking.
I’m trying to not be pessimistic, but I’ve had a lot of low points, especially lately.
I’m in between upskilling, and finding a 2nd job to get more money now.
I am just frustrated, I think.