Passive Suicide

I dont mean to give toxic positivity. Im only trying to help those who want the help. I can only contribute what has worked for myself. Thoughts and realizations that worked for me. Take what follows from this point on with a grain of salt, but also, if you choose to continue to read, give it a fair chance to make impact.

Some people say, “I want to kill myself, but Im too afraid to go through with it all. So I do nothing, and suffer.” But we only get so many days in a life. The people who say this ARE killing themselves. They ARE going through with it. It is a very slow, painful, torturous death. Some drink or drug, like I did. Some play video games in a basement. Some wander the streets, homeless and begging. Some live out the same days endlessly, never making different decisions. But there is no such thing as not making a choice. Each day that we continue to breathe is a day that we get to make decisions about. Yes, there are circumstances outside of our control. But there are even things we decide upon within the hours of a shitty day. Deciding not to decide or deciding to use time destructively, in a way that hurts your opportunities, is suicide.

Its funny how one couldve already known this, and yet, given it no heed. Stuffed away with millions of other recollections deemed unimportant.

The way out looks different for everyone. But everyone committing passive suicide can get out of it by making better decisions for themselves. Nothing will ever be perfect or optimal. But things can at least be better. At the very least, you dont have to make things worse for yourself. Not if you dont want to. Even if things are shit, take what decisions you have, and make them the best ones you can possibly make, just for today.