I finally got feedback from my old labmates. After two weeks. They are busy people. Haven’t read it though. 26 and I still can’t take criticism. That’s pretty sad. I guess it also has to do with the fact that I’m just not feeling it. I don’t belong back there. I shouldn’t have made it as far as I did in the first place. I’ve repeated this so many times. There’s no point in me trying for fellowships when I think about it. But then I give my friend such a hard time about how she should keep trying. I guess it makes all my advice real hollow then. Whatever. I flipped a coin to see if I’d at least read the feedback tonight before bed and it landed on heads. Oh boy.
Had 3 interviews this week. I drove all the way to fucking Austin for one. Well I didn’t, my dad did. I just sat on my fat ass the whole way there. Still sucked being on the road that long though. And I just end up embarrassing myself by not being able to do the most simple tasks. Not hearing back from them. I don’t mind actually. Pay was shit and they didn’t seem that great either. Don’t want to spend 5 days a week stripping cars apart and loading them up with a bunch of sensors for those death traps. The people seemed sorta cool though. Sort of. Laid back is my speed, but they seemed a bit too laid back. Other two were ok. Nothing to write home about. Didn’t do so hot on the first and then did alright on the second. Both companies owned by Asian companies. Would be cool if I got sent to South Korea for a work trip. Don’t know why they’d send a nobody to SK, but it’d be cool. Not super keen to go to China though. Also have an interview Monday for McDonalds. I told my mom about that and she seemed to disapprove. Why the fuck did you ask me to get a part time job then? Can’t fucking win.
This doesn’t fit at all, but the lyrics seem some what appropriate. Constantly willing to do anything. Except for one thing anyways.