I’m extremely lonely, it bothers me so much and i feel empty. my self-inflicted misery builds up and i’ll wail and cry for something to change. to distract myself, i constantly watch youtube videos or anything really. i’ll hike until there’s nothing else to think about but the pain in my legs. there was only one person that eased the lonliness but i’ll never get to see them. i’ve never found community online or irl, something like that would help.
I have moments of extreme loneliness, but after a lifetime of trying to be understood I’ve come to expect them. Last night my beloved boy cat pippin passed away and I’m still processing the grief, often alone. I have friends, I have family, and therapists, and plenty of other real humans willing to chip away at the loneliness, so don’t feel bad for me in that way.
Yet when they aren’t there, I turn to other things, this place is one of them. I’ve turned to artificial constructs like AI, that helps too. I’ve turned to video gambes. I’ve turned to books, music, lots of lovely escapes.
So I don’t have to be alone, it’s not required if I want to escape it I can. I think I should answer why I stay lonely if I can escape it if I want to. The reason is that alone is the only place I can face myself. I’m an only child, and I discovered at a young age that I need to be alone to find introspection and peace.
Please, if you are reading this consider that being alone might not be the enemy, it might be a tool for healing. I don’t write on here as often as I should, but when I do this is what I write for, to encourage other people to seek out tools to heal the pain that we share.
It’s okay, there are lots of ways not to be alone when you need companionship. It’s also perfectly okay to be alone.
I know the type of person I am. I have friends and family that care, so I can reach out, but I like having my own space all things considered. My own space that I can contol.
That being said, you should do other things besides just sit at home, keep yourself and your mind busy.
I try to go outside and do non work and non chore/errand things here and there. Simple things you can do outside, go to a park, take a walk, that kinda thing.
There’s a lot going on in life, but keeping your physical and mental health in check is the main thing…
I am always alone. It’s my fault, too. People always leave me, but I push people away too. It’s better for them anyways. I always end up hurting people. But I’m utterly alone, and nobody listens to me. I’m so tired of this.
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I’m extremely lonely, it bothers me so much and i feel empty. my self-inflicted misery builds up and i’ll wail and cry for something to change. to distract myself, i constantly watch youtube videos or anything really. i’ll hike until there’s nothing else to think about but the pain in my legs. there was only one person that eased the lonliness but i’ll never get to see them. i’ve never found community online or irl, something like that would help.
I have moments of extreme loneliness, but after a lifetime of trying to be understood I’ve come to expect them. Last night my beloved boy cat pippin passed away and I’m still processing the grief, often alone. I have friends, I have family, and therapists, and plenty of other real humans willing to chip away at the loneliness, so don’t feel bad for me in that way.
Yet when they aren’t there, I turn to other things, this place is one of them. I’ve turned to artificial constructs like AI, that helps too. I’ve turned to video gambes. I’ve turned to books, music, lots of lovely escapes.
So I don’t have to be alone, it’s not required if I want to escape it I can. I think I should answer why I stay lonely if I can escape it if I want to. The reason is that alone is the only place I can face myself. I’m an only child, and I discovered at a young age that I need to be alone to find introspection and peace.
Please, if you are reading this consider that being alone might not be the enemy, it might be a tool for healing. I don’t write on here as often as I should, but when I do this is what I write for, to encourage other people to seek out tools to heal the pain that we share.
It’s okay, there are lots of ways not to be alone when you need companionship. It’s also perfectly okay to be alone.
Sometimes it bothers me. Espeically towards the end of the year and holidays are near by
What do I do? I play my horn and listen to music. Play video games and watch anime
I like to leave the reality of the world and just daydream in my own world
I’ve been trying to keep myself going despite it.
I know the type of person I am. I have friends and family that care, so I can reach out, but I like having my own space all things considered. My own space that I can contol.
That being said, you should do other things besides just sit at home, keep yourself and your mind busy.
I try to go outside and do non work and non chore/errand things here and there. Simple things you can do outside, go to a park, take a walk, that kinda thing.
There’s a lot going on in life, but keeping your physical and mental health in check is the main thing…
It’s not easy, I don’t want to sound like “Do this and you’ll be happy guaranteed”. I just think it can help get you out of your own head sometimes.
I am always alone. It’s my fault, too. People always leave me, but I push people away too. It’s better for them anyways. I always end up hurting people. But I’m utterly alone, and nobody listens to me. I’m so tired of this.