there really is always something going wrong. I’m just tired of dealing with every new thing that hits me in the face. I’m tired of dealing with the people who tore me apart with smiles on their faces. I’m just so tired
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Girl, you are so young, yet you sound like a worn-out middle aged woman lol
Idk how you’re going to make it through life because the rest of life IS just like this- except worse- tons of stress, tons of pressure, tons of demands, tons of bullshit, tons of fake friends and backstabbers, etc. Oh and as Gen Alpha, pretty much screwed economically. Well, Gen Z and Millennials have also been screwed.
If I knew life was so bullshit, I wouldn’t have tried so hard.
Sorry if none of this makes you feel any better. I wish people didn’t LIE to me when I was around your age- that things DON’T “always” get better.
I don’t mean to be a downer but it’s also important to not feel lied to by older people like I was. Which make everything all the worse when you THINK the world or life or job would be better when in reality, it’s not.
Anyhow, you ARE very young so you COULD have a better life in the future. Just not guaranteed. And who knows what the probability of that is.
I’m not sure what’s going on in your life but it may be a good idea to keep a record of everything. It may be the only thing that you can refer back to in the future. I mean hopefully this website will still be around but that’s not necessarily guaranteed.
Records are dangerous. My parents can and will find anything, anywhere. I kind of have a small notebook, though I’ve torn out and burned quite a few pages. I think they may have already read it, but I still move it like 4 times a day
Ok it may have to wait until you have a better place to keep them private then. There can also be records that they already know about, that is, not private any more, but you may still want to preserve your own copy of.
I know what you mean about leaving records. Maybe invent a secret code? I came up with one years ago and nobody has ever cracked it …the trick is to throw in a lot of nonsense characters & symbols that you recognize as nonsense, but it’ll be enough to confuse the hell out of any codebreakers.
Writing stuff out does help, if only to remind yourself never to repeat your mistakes or allow others to repeat them.