I wish I could just disappear. I’m a loser. I hate this world, I hate reality, I hate real world, I hate real life!

It’s been a while since I’ve posted here in this website. Last time I’ve posted was September 2023. Now, it’s February 2026. I’m 43/M from Indonesia. People might look at me on the surface from the outside that I’m ‘okay’. That’s how shallow, superficial, & fake this world, society, & people are. Nobody really/truly cares about how/what I think/feel deep down inside. In reality, I’m just a loser/failure, especially in today’s ‘capitalistic’ world/era. I’m just a sad, pathetic, useless sack of meat who’s just better not exist. If only there’s an easy way to disappear. If only Thanos’ finger snap was real. If only the ‘red button’ really exist to press immediately. But, reality is cruel. The world is cruel. It’s a cruel world & life/existence/reality. So now, I’m stuck & trapped everyday.