Our existence only matters until enough generations have passed to forget us. And even if we created something significant for humanity our memory will only be significant for a small piece of history, other than that, no emotional attachment
Even though I value my own life somewhere between shit and shinola, I know if I disappear it will destroy many lives and lead to a fucking mess far worse than my life itself. Honestly that’s what’s pushing me toward suicide, this enormous maddening responsibility that I guarantee no sane person can endure. I know this because I was once sane before I had it heaped on me.
And this is why the suicide prevention hotline, as well as all known counseling & therapy, did nothing to help me. Because they assume all suicidal people think they’re worthless, so the counselors focus on telling you that your life has value. No shit sherlock that’s exactly what’s killing me, I tell them. To which they’re like, Oh um ok well… (flipping nervously through suicide prevention handbook for a nonexistent chapter)
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Our existence only matters until enough generations have passed to forget us. And even if we created something significant for humanity our memory will only be significant for a small piece of history, other than that, no emotional attachment
Even though I value my own life somewhere between shit and shinola, I know if I disappear it will destroy many lives and lead to a fucking mess far worse than my life itself. Honestly that’s what’s pushing me toward suicide, this enormous maddening responsibility that I guarantee no sane person can endure. I know this because I was once sane before I had it heaped on me.
And this is why the suicide prevention hotline, as well as all known counseling & therapy, did nothing to help me. Because they assume all suicidal people think they’re worthless, so the counselors focus on telling you that your life has value. No shit sherlock that’s exactly what’s killing me, I tell them. To which they’re like, Oh um ok well… (flipping nervously through suicide prevention handbook for a nonexistent chapter)