Has anyone else ever felt so suffocated by their failures in life? To the point that it prevents you from moving forward and just keeps you there, frozen, unable to achieve, unable to do anything in fact. But the sick and twisted part of it is that it keeps you in a place visible to everyone, leaving you vulnerable to their attacks. Or worse, just being frozen in that spot whilst everyone else achieves and no matter how much it hurts you, all you can do about it is congratulate them. I’m sure i’m not the only one. I know it seems selfish, and ridiculous though. Just try harder you say? I do..I really do. But life isn’t that simple. It just makes me so sad. Why am I so stupid? Why am I such a bad person? Why am I such a hypocrite? I tell everyone else to be happy, but why can’t I?
I’m sorry for complaining..I really just wanted to let it out.
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Yeah totally man, it kinda sucked going to graduations to see friends I haven’t seen in years considering I dropped out of high school. Did it make me feel stupid? not really, but it did put a damper on my pride.
Yeah I know how this feels. This is partially why I don’t have a Facebook or anything anymore because I’m depressed enough already, I don’t need to spend time on a website hearing about all the great things people are doing and accomplishing and seeing all their happy pictures. I was actually thinking to myself earlier today before I even read this, I bet with my luck my worst nightmare will some true, one of my ex girlfriends or one of my friends who doesn’t talk to me anymore will probably end up on television or in some popular band and I’ll hear about their success some day and I’ll feel like a total loser. Even people I don’t know, just realizing that there are athletes and musicians and people who have interesting careers and money to spend, what am I good at? I sleep, I eat, I cry. I’m a pretty embarrassing person.
Hi LM, no that doesn’t make you a bad person. I can understand how it makes you feel down but at the same time you have to look at the positives in your life. Surely there must be something your not seeing. I have been in your shoes tho. I understand how it’s not the easiest thing I the world, life and living I mean. Stay strong, think positive and hold your head high. Take it one day at a time. Take care.
LB